whoa boy

I'm back to work finally!!!

And boy is it kicking my ass. hehe I have to get up at 5am cause the job is way the heck on the other side of the next town. So far I'm ok with the job. There is lots of opportunity for overtime. Unfortunately I don't get to spend the extra money on yarn. hehehe I so need a new car. The truck uses way too much gas and the heater died. Thank God it hasn't been too horribly cold. No freakin clue what I'm going to do when we get some snow or ice.

trucking along

I figured out the mattress seam finally. I've got the left side of the sweater done. I probably could get the right side done tonight. Right now I'm feelin a bit tired though. I think I just ate too much. I'm just going to have to eat smaller meals more often or something. Anyways, I'm glad I did this sweater in acrylic. I would feel bad if I had wasted wool on it. hehe When I made the sleeves longer, they became kind of baggy. I know if I had ripped the seam back I could have fixed it, but it is too late now. I weaved the tails from the color changes into the edges of the seam. Someday I'll learn how to weave in ends without ending up with a thick hard fabric.

Ignoring all the other wips I've got and feeling pretty good about nearing the end of the sweater. So of course I cast on for another project. :OP I've always wanted to try Fair Isle knitting. I finally realized that the way I change colors in knitting is actually not the way you would in Fair Isle. I bring the new color under the old one and if I'm working back across I untwist them in that row. It keeps the yarn from twisting unless I'm adding a brand new skein. When I add a new skein I put a small knot in the yarn. Before ya freak, I do undo the knot before weaving in the ends. The knot just holds the yarn from pulling and creating loose stitches.

Anyways, I found a chart for sort of a flower I guess. I'm doing the flower itself in pink and the background in red. Yes it is acrylic. Since I'm just kinda screwing around I don't want to risk nice yarn on it. The only thing I would change is the pink yarn is either sport or dk and the red is worsted. I was tired when I started this so I didn't notice. It just kinda makes the background look a lil puffy. I'm doing 6 repeats of the pattern and if I do keep working it, it will end up being a small bag. The chart is kinda big, so I may only have to do one or two repeats high.

I did come up with an interesting idea on how to keep the pink yarn below the red. I've got a ring that has a large stone in it and it fits on my index finger. I wrap the yarn under my pinky, over my ring finger, under the middle finger and over the index finger on my left hand. I put the pink yarn on the inside of the stone and the red on the outside. Unless I work a longer stretch of one color, it does a pretty good job. I need to figure out a better way of weaving the floats though. There are a few spots where there are 7 or more background stitches and I don't want the pink yarn floated free that whole time. The fact that the pink is thinner yarn is helping hide the weaving a little better.

Btw thanks to those of you that have commented on my yarn storage. I really am liking having it organized up there. I'm going to use some of the extra grid pieces to divide the patterns. I just need to decide how to attach them.

The seaming has begun

Well, last night I began the seaming of Nick's sweater. I started with the left shoulder.

I think I did pretty good considering I've never actually seamed a knit piece before. Next I moved on to the sleeve. It made me realize I have no clue what the hell I'm doing with seaming up two sides. End to side, peachy. End to end, peachy. Side to side, not so much.

I need to get out some of my technique books. I swear I can picture what to do, but when it comes right down to doing it, my brain freezes.

Quick hello

Not that anyone has missed me.

I'm working the cap shaping on Nick's sleeves. I'm about ready to start putting the whole thing together. I ended up having plenty of yarn in the end. I may add some patch pockets. I'll just wait and see what it looks like put together.

I haven't been working on any other projects right now. I've been taking the sweater with me everywhere. I'm tired of sitting in doctor's offices with nothing to do sometimes for hours.

I've got about 16 people asking to join my always tag list. I guess I better get my butt in gear and make some new tags. I've just been uploading my old tags to a new web site that I'm designing.

Stash flash

Well I've got some of my stuff half sorted and organized.

This is the new shelving unit I built on top of my dresser. In the top left are crochet and knit leaflets. Top center are knit and crochet magazines and a cone of burgundy thread. I think there is enough to make a large table topper for my dining table. Top right is some misc papers and the cone of gray wool I'm going to use for a shawl. I'm going to use it doubled.

Middle left is fabric for baby blankets and bags. Middle center is misc wool off of eBay, a large skein of peach chenille and some baby yarn. Middle right is cross stitch and craft magazines that will more than likely go up on eBay and the hemp wool I'm going to use for a sweater for me.

Bottom left is two bags of Caron Perfect Match that will be tops for me, some thin boucle wool, recycled silk and Noro Kuryeon. Bottom center is a whole bunch of thin chenille that will become a blanket and a bunch of sock yarn. Bottom right is the remainder of the green boucle for my long unfinished sweater, the extra white Caron Sayelle for Nick's sweater and some misc yarn.

Is that all my stash?

Not by far. hehe

I've got 2 small totes and an underbed tote under my bed and various boxes and bags of yarn and thread in my closet. I've also got 2 tall and one small rolling stacked drawers of yarn and thread in the corner. None of this has been sorted through yet. I'm a bit slow. I need to find some magazine boxes that don't cost an arm and a leg. Either that or go through the ones I already have. hehe

Time to go work on Nick's sweater.

Step one

It's a very important one. One that I'm not very good at doing. The first step is to READ THE INSTRUCTIONS. Step two: Read em again. I had the kid at a doctor's appointment again today. This time I wasn't going to sit in a dang office with only a 6 yr old to entertain me. Granted he was hyped up on his medication and looked like a speed freak. I brought along his sweater and trucked along. I'm doing them at the same time. I'll do a stripe on one sleeve and then do that stripe on the other one. I had read the instructions to say: Increase one stitch at the end of each 4th row until I had 72 stitches. I was like, cool beans I got this covered.

Jump ahead to a couple hours later and a couple stripes done. I'm watching a cool new show on Sci-Fi called John Doe. ohhhhh mammma that boy is hot hot hot. He was the original Dracula in the 3rd Blade movie. mmmmmm Anyways, I decided to figure out how many stripes I would have done when I had added the 32 extra stitches. Ohh..... didn't tell you I started out with 40 did I. Well I hadn't been thinking about it either. So I'm thinking, ever 2 stripes I'm getting 5 increases. So 32 divided by 5 is roughly 6 and some changes. But wait, if I'm increasing 5 stitches in every 2 rows and I need to do this 6 times, that means I'll be doing 12 stripes before doing the shoulder shaping. Did I mention that this is a kids sweater? Each stripe is like 2 1/2 inches deep. That was going to give me one looooong ass sleeve.

So I get out the instructions that I finally printed out at Mom's cause she can actually afford to buy printer ink. Me? not so much. I had to read the dang instructions like 4 times before it hit me. I am supposed to increase a stitch on each end of the 4th row. So in a 2 stripe repeat, I'm actually increasing 10 stitches. So we are talking 6 stripes plus a little into the 7th stripe. Well shit that actually matches up with where the cap shaping starts.

So I got to do a little visiting to the good ole frog pond. I wasn't pissed off or anything. I blame it on lack of sleep and being worried about the kid. Forget the fact that I actually started the increases on the first sleeve before he got real ill. lol After I get some sleep tonight, I'm going to get working on the sweater at full speed. I'm really looking forward to deciding how I'm going to deal with the shoulder. I'm thinking of adding a small band across the top to help lengthen the sweater. I didn't take in to account that the kid is pretty tall for his age. He may only be 6 1/2 but he is almost up to my mom's shoulders. Then again the woman is barely over 5' tall.

Enough about the sweater for now. I'm loosing mental cohesion. Oh, I got the magazine that my brother subscribed to for me. It's Creative Knitting. I kind of like the mag, so I'm happy. The boy did go out of his way to spoil me this year. The thing is, I already own the copy that just came. If any of y'all want the extra copy, just send me an e-mail at froddopsycho AT yahoo DOT com with Creative Knitting in the subject. Just give me your snail mail addy and I'll have the magazine off to you asap. Ok so I'm not as fast as Fedex or UPS, but I'll try to get the mag mailed out within a week of someone claiming it.

Well, hell but I've just yapped like a mad hen here. I guess that is what happens when I'm stuck home with the kid for almost a week with no outside contact. Mom doesn't really count cause we have never mastered the art of chit chat. Heck tonight she slept on the couch while I watched tv and knit. Dad was too busy spackling the walls in the basement and keeping an eye on Nick while he played on his pc.

Time for bed. Cross your fingers that I'll pass out quickly. lol

A long day

I spent 3 1/2 hours in the ER today. My son has had a cold since Monday night and he just wasn't getting any better. I've kept him home because of his asthma and this afternoon he was having a lot of trouble breathing. He almost had to stay the night for observation because his blood oxygen levels wouldn't come up. Thankfully a steroid shot did the trick. I've got to give him breathing treatments every 4 hours tonight. And then every 2 hours tomorrow when he is awake. I'll be calling one of the doctors where he regularly goes in the morning to see about changing his meds.

Never again will I go into a doctor's appointment or into the ER without my knitting. 3+ hours with no tv, radio, computer or knitting and only a 6 yr old is not fun. He did sing for me a little bit which was nice. That was when I knew he was feeling better. Kids can be fun.

Scarf Update

Finally found the pattern link http://www.twinwillowsfarm.com/lacy_v_scarf.html The reason I couldn't find the link in my history is cause she forgot to change the title of the page. It says that it is a short shawl.

Feel like a bum

I started a scarf the other night. As if I need another WIP. I would post a link to the pattern, but I can't find it. I swear I saved the pattern but it isn't in my scarf folder. I keep my history for 10 days so hopefully I'll find the dang link again cause I really don't want to have to decipher what I have done so far. hehe

Still not done organizing my stash. I didn't realize just how many leaflets and magazines I've got. Of course, I've been saving crochet patterns since the mid 90s. I do have a couple crochet magazines from the 80s. They are good for a laugh. I've got loads of copies of Decorative Crochet and Magic Crochet. I think I subscribed to each for like 3 years. I've also got many cross stitch mags and old copies of Family Circle. At one point I think I got 5 or 6 cross stitch mags each month. I'm going to try and sell some of the cross stitch ones. I haven't done any real work on any of it for 6 years. Just the thought of working from a lil chart and doing the stitches gives me a headache. hehe

yawn

I swear, if I don't go back to work soon I'm going to go into a coma. I'm going to slip back into the daze that I was in for a year after leaving school. I had been doing quite well at staying alert and moving, but for the last 3 weeks or so not so much. It doesn't matter if I sleep all night, I'm tired all day. At least when I had somewhere to go and a job to do, I could trick myself into feeling half awake.

I tried using the organization program that came with the Instant Stitch set. The damn thing kept writing over records. I finally gave up and made my own database. I was going to make a spreadsheet, but decided that it wouldn't be as easy to sort. I had to get out my Office 2000 book in order to remember half of the crap in Access. I still had to use the help feature a bunch. I've got a fairly well running database though. I still don't have all my books and magazines in there yet. I just got bored typing stuff in. hehe I'll probably create a database for my yarn and needles too. Well those may work better as spreadsheets.

I've also started working on a new central web site for myself. I've got too many small ones that I don't work on enough. I have/had a tag site up on Anzwers but I can't get even the homepage to open. If any of y'all can get the site to open, let me know. I'm hoping that they just had a server or two go down and that they didn't go belly up. I have hundreds of tags up there and a couple web pages. I'll provide a link to my new site when I get a few pages up and working. I had to mess with the darn css for about a half hour to get the layout and the colors the way I wanted it. I've got to create some buttons and such for the site.

Time to try and work my way through some mail. Either that or I'm gonna go play some poker. hehe

Whining over

Well, as much as it ever ends for me. I'm a whiner. It's just the way I am, you will just have to deal with it. :OP

I took the offending shelf kit back to Shopko. I told the clerk that the person who designed it was a moron. hehe I then went over to Target and got the real deal set. I got a 6 cube set for less than the 4 cube set at Shopko cost. I'm going to put 3 of the cubes next to my bed as a night stand and the other 3 on top of the 6 all ready on my dresser. Once I get everything organized I'll post a picture of it.

I also have a nice supply of Pepsi in the kitchen. 4 six packs of 24 ounce bottles. I drink 2 or 3 bottles a day. What can I say? I'm addicted. If I don't get my caffeine I get a headache and can get dizzy. Yeah that is bad, but I don't smoke and I don't drink booze often. I'm also loosing weight. Not that my cholesterol is going down. Doc put me on Lipitor. I guess cholesterol is only 20% controlled by your diet. The rest is all genetic. I try to eat fairly well. I mostly eat frozen diet meals. If my son would start eating real food, I would actually cook. For now though, if I actually cook a meal I over eat. Not good.

No knitting progress to report. I've been just too damn tired. I need to get back to work. I'm just not active enough when I'm home all day by myself. Oh well. Off to read mail and then I'm going to build those shelves and get organized.

Send in the maid

If you are expecting tales of yarn or knitting. Skip this post. If you are expecting me to be even half amusing. Skip this post. All this is, is one great big ole pity party and whine fest. If you don't want to read a rant by a self abosorbed wackjob that can't spell, just keep surfing. I don't feel like being witty (which I'm not) or amusing (which I rarely am) or cute (which I know I'm not).


I'm so frustrated. Yesterday I bought one of those crate shelf kits for organizing my books and yarn. It's one of those metal grid kits that you put together into cubes in the configuration that you pick. I've got 2 other shelf sets like it in my room. The difference with this one is that it is from a different manufacturer and whoever it was that designed the connectors was a complete and total fuckwad. If the connector isn't completely seated on the grid, it pops all the way off. If you are pushing on the connector to get another grid aligned, it will pop off. I managed to get one cube put together but as soon as I started adding on the second one, it all started falling apart. The kit is now back in the box. I will be returning it to the store and going to a different store looking for the sane version of this shelf.

The part that is really pissin me off is that once again, my bed is completely covered in stuff. Oh it isn't all just on the bed either. There are baskets of stuff out in the living room and hallway. I DO NOT want to go in to town tonight. But I also want to be able to sleep in my bed without piling all this stuff on the floor.

I'm tired and half depressed and I don't want to go take another shower and get dressed and drive 20 minutes into town and deal with the twits at Shopko and then deal with the twits and Target and then go to Wal-Mart for soda and then drive all the way back home and put all this shit together. (sentence long enough for ya?) What I want to do is lay down until my headache goes away. But my damn bed is full of stuff!!! I had pizza for lunch so I have heartburn. My ears are ringing like a son of a bitch. I'm hot and sweaty. I can just feel the damn grease sitting on my scalp. I would give anything for a great big ole tub. It doesn't even have to have the hot tub jets in it. I just wanna lay in a bunch of bubbles without either my whole top half or my legs half out of the damn tub.

I'm goin batty cause I haven't worked since before Christmas. I'm sick of my own company. I want to deal with other adults besides my freakin parents. My dad is more like a freakin 3 year old anyway. I can't stand one more conversation with my son right now where I know he is going to come back with "How do you know?" Six year old boys can be such pains in the butt. :OP

Please excuse all the glaring spelling errors that I'm sure are in this post. Blogger is being a pain and none of the posting tools will load. I'm gonna go stand in the damn shower until the water runs cold. Maybe then I'll feel like heading into town and getting the crap I need. Don't count on it. I'm sure I'll end up going to the gas station for a bottle or two of pepsi later. Don't worry, I'll pass right on by the beer and other booze. They don't sell Southern Comfort. ha

It isn't my fault!!

I blame Ann.

She started it.

I was being good. I swear.

She had to go and post about the yarn she got at Smiley's. I didn't even have them in my bookmarks. Yeah, I've visited the site before, but I've never ordered anything.

That is until last night.

I ordered four skeins of Cervinia Calzetteria. Two in Naples and two in Verona for $2.50 each. Eight skeins of Lion Brand Kool Wool for $1.35 a piece. Two each in Camel, Khaki, Blue Jeans, and Eggplant. Five skeins of Bernat Berella Sportspun at $0.77 a piece. Three in Soft Yellow and two in Too Blue Print. Lastly there is eight skeins of Jamie Classic at $1.00 each. There are two skeins of white and one each of Peppermint Pink, Peach, Lemonade, Candy Blue, Pistachio and Lilac. Total price with shipping = $41.50. Not too bad considering how many skeins I ordered.

I've only got one project planned for sure for any of the yarn. The Jamie Classic will become the crocheted rainbow baby blanket on the cover of Baby's Best to knit and crochet by Helen Passey. I've made 2 of the blankets before and one each of the jacket and booties. Only thing is, I made them about 13 years ago. hehe I had three cousins expecting babies all at about the same time. I made my favorite cousin the whole set. Another cousin got a blanket. I started a blanket for the third, but I never finished it. I've still got it somewhere in a bag. This one is going to be a throw for lil ole me. :OP

I had originally borrowed the leaflet from my grandma. She was the only person I knew that crocheted. Somewhere over the years, either I had given the pattern back to her or lost it. Last summer, I wanted to make the blanket for another cousin but I'll be damned if I could locate the pattern. I gave up and made her a large blanket out of Baby Clouds I think. I kept searching for the pattern and found it on a web site about two months later. I managed to snag it for less than $3 including shipping.

Oh and by the by. I won five skeins of the Caron Sayelle in white on eBay last night. The shipping ended up being more than the yarn. Now I can match the yarn for the neck and front edges though. I'm about halfway through the second front piece. I'm going to wait to join the shoulders until I have the arms done. I may end up adding a strip of the black at the shoulders if I have enough of it left. The top stripes are only 6 rows high compared to 10 rows for all the other stripes. We shall see what I have left.

OK, off to do some knitting. Cross your fingers for me. I've got a job interview tomorrow. Not great pay, but it is temp to hire.

The things we do for yarn

I just got done moving my queen sized bed and putting it up on blocks. I did this so my under bed storage tote will actually fit UNDER my bed. I can fit some of my shallow totes under there now too. But boy am I pooped. I can't wait for the first time the kid starts jumping on my bed. I can just see the look of fear on his face as it falls off the blocks. HEHEHEHE No it isn't unstable but he has been known to get bouncing good. Maybe now he will listen when I tell him to stop.

I'm trucking right along on Nick's sweater. I'm almost to the point of shaping the left front. I need to decrease 10 stitches in order to have the right number of stitches for the shoulder. So, I'm going to decrease one stitch ever 2 rows. I figure this will give me a nice V-neck. If I'm wrong, oh well I guess I'll take a trip to the frog pond. :OP I won't cut the yarn at the end of the last 2 stripes just in case. I've got a lead on some more white yarn for the neck and front edge. Cross your fingers for me that no one else is on a mission to steal this yarn out from under me.

I've gotten a few of my eBay wins in the mail in the last week. Yeah I know I shouldn't be playin on there but.... well..... HUSH!!! From one nice lady I got 4 older pattern leaflets. Pattern #557 Kim Hargreaves from Rowan which is a pattern for a nice cotton sweater or tunic with chevrons on it. I'll have to do a little bit of adjusting to make the chest measurement fit me. Pretty typical for me. hehe Pattern #82001 ColorBlock Family with Striped Backs from Reynolds. This is for either a pull-over or cardigan and the largest size will fit me. *BG* Patons leaflet 1130, Classic Raglans. There are 2 pull-over versions and a cardigan. The largest size will fit me but I'll probably add a lil more ease to them. Finally I got Classic Elite Yarns leaflet #486. This is for a baby sweater and an adult sweater with lots of color. I don't have to alter this one either unless I want to. Yeah!!

From a different seller I got a copy of the Drifting Dreams Jacket from Just One More Row. This one is going to be interesting to do. I just have to find some pretty yarn. And from yet another seller I picked up the Instant Stitch cds. There are 4 disks: PM Stitch Creator, Sweater Design, Personal Patterns for Children, and Organized Expressions. I really got it for the sweater creator, but I like the organizer program. I went a little nuts when I tried to install everything. I got PM Stitch to install just fine, but I couldn't get the others to install. I tried everything I could think of and was getting very ticked. I ran Disk Cleanup and defragged. Still nothing. Finally I ran the setup files as administrator and it worked. tg

No more eBay wins. Those wins were over the last month though. It isn't like I won them all last week. hehe The yarn co-op that I belong to is doing a co-op with 100PureWool on eBay and I ordered 2 skeins in a real pretty green. I'm not real sure what I'll make with it, but I've been coveting their yarn for quite some time.

Well, time to finish reorganizing my room. HUD is doing inspections soon and the landlord is flipping because I have a low dresser under my bedroom window. Big whoop. Granted I'm not good at keeping tons of yarn and books off of it. :P

Sweater picture

Ok, here is a picture of Nick's sweater so y'all can see the colors.



I'm up to the second dark blue stripe. The neck shaping is in the black stripe after that. So, the back is almost done. I'm probably going to have to do the edging around the neck and button bands in Red Heart yarn. It would seem that Caron in all their wisdom discontinued Sayelle yarn. I've searched everywhere for a skein of the white. I've found a few other colors on eBay but not the one I need. sigh I'm going to put out an ISO for a skein of it on one of the knitting groups I'm in. I doubt anyone will have it though. sniff sniff

Oh well. The color of the two yarns is the same and the weight is almost identical. The Sayelle has a much tighter twist though. It feels much more dense than the RH. But then again, this is a play sweater for a 6 yr old boy. I'm sure he will kill it within a month or two. hehe

Ok, off to do some mail and get my tired butt to bed.

must sleep

must turn off pc...

must crawl to bed....

wait....

must finish quizes on the Mythbusters web site....

much too funny...

can't control my fingers.....

help meeeeeeeeeeee.......

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Oh for Pete's sake...

For the last two days I've been so worried about how large Nick's sweater was going to turn out. I'm making the Danny sweater from YarnFwd, btw. I couldn't understand why the heck my sweater back was about 16 inches wide when the finished sweater is supposed to be 27 inches. I just checked my gauge and I'm getting 17 1/2 stitches by 24 rows in a 4" square on size 4s. The gauge for the sweater is 18 stitches by 24 rows on size 7s. I guess I'm knitting a bit looser than I ever thought. hehe I had gotten gauge on size 5s but went down a size for the edge like the pattern calls for and it seamed so darn wide so I stayed with the size 4.

Long story short, I read the pattern wrong. The large is to fit someone with a 27" chest. The finished measurement is 32". hehehe So, my 16" back is just perfectly on gauge. wooowhoooo!!!

I'm still going to make it into a cardigan. It may be the right weight yarn at the right gauge, but man it feels heavy. I would rather he wear it over a shirt to play outside than to have him wear it as a sweater inside and be too hot. I've never been one to buy him sweaters. I usually feel too warm and I don't want him getting all overheated when he is running around. There have been many times when he was running around my folks house and ended up covered in sweat just from a long sleeve t-shirt.

Off to work on the sweater a little more. I'll post a picture showing the colors when I get the next band done. I'm really liking the colors. :O)

Yuck!!!!

While I was at Wal-Mart today, I was going to pick up a size 4 circular needle to use on my son's sweater. Well the smallest size they have is a 7. Well Hobby Lobby is across the street. So I head over thinking maybe I would pick up some bamboo needles. They of course didn't have them small enough either. They did have some Balene cirs though. I picked up a size 4 and size 6. By the 3rd or 4th stitch I was about to scream though. Now I know what everyone had been talking about with acrylic and plastic needles. You would swear I was jabbing a plastic needle into styrofoam. I don't know if the sound or the feel of it was worse. shiver I gave up after about 2 rows. I guess I'll work the sweater on my metal straights and when I need to put it down I'll knit a row onto the circ.

I'm afraid to go over to Micheal's to look for different needles. My mom said that most of the store was 50% off. I so do not need to spend any more money right now. You see, the needles weren't the only thing I picked up at Hobby Lobby. All books were 50% off. I don't remember seeing that advertised. Anyways, I picked up The Sock Journal and The Knitter's Handy Book of Patterns. I have now officially bought every book at Hobby Lobby that I care to own. Ok that sounded weird. I meant that of the books that they have in stock, I've bought the ones I want. They do have a stitch library that is nice but I have 3 or 4 large books of stitches. I doubt there is anything in that book that I can't find in one I already own.

Well, I'm pooped. I did manage to take a half assed nap during Harry Potter this afternoon. I would have gotten a more restful sleep if Nick hadn't of kept jumping on me and punching me in the butt. hehe As soon as Medium is over, I'm hittin the sack.

whimper

It's 5am. I think I slept about an hour. I've got bloodwork that has to be done early, so I had planned on getting up at 6:30. My eyes are finally back to feeling like maybe I could sleep, but I don't fall asleep very fast. I really don't think that Laying down is gonna help me much. I would just postpone going into the lab until later but Nick has been sleeping later and he goes back to school on Thursday. He needs to start getting up earlier. So do I for that matter. I would feel so much better if I could have a damn Pepsi. But nooooo... I have to fast for the damn bloodwork. I haven't had any caffeine or sugar since 8 last night.

I want my Pepsiiiiiii!!!!!

Yes, I'm addicted. No, I don't want to stop. No, I don't want to drink some gross tasting diet soda. I can not stand the taste of artificial sweeteners. They make me want to gag. It drives me nuts when people say, "Oh you get used to the taste." I'm sorry, I drink Pepsi cause I like the taste. I'm not gonna drink something that tastes like shit just cause it has no calories and no caffeine. I want me damn caffeine too!!!! I don't drink coffee. Love the smell of the stuff but it tastes like shit to me. Pepsi is my only addiction. Well, unless you count yarn. hehe

I almost ordered some pattern books online last night. There were 3 of them on clearance for a total of like $8.50. I kind of changed my mind when I got to the checkout and the shipping cost for 3 books was going to be $7.50. It doesn't cost no damn $7.50 to send 3 damn booklets. Off and on I've sold stuff on eBay and it never cost me more than say $4 for a fat envelope of booklets. Call me cheap but I ain't paying shipping like that.

There are tons of sellers on eBay that charge $10 to $12 for shipping for one skein of yarn or one book. They can kiss my cheap ass. I've seen some clothes and such with a pay now price of $2 and the shipping is $20 or more. I pity the people who don't pay attention to shipping. The only time I got suckered was when I won an auction for crochet thread. Pretty stuff and I won it cheap. Only thing was the guy was in Turkey and only accepted Bidpay. It cost me more for shipping and charges at Bidpay than the thread did. Live and learn I guess.

I decided to go ahead with Nick's sweater on size 4s. The sweater is only supposed to be 27 inches around but for some reason the back is 16 inches wide. Yes I did check my gauge. With size 5s my gauge was spot on even thought the pattern called for size 7s. I have no clue why my stitch width would go up so much when I went down a size for the garter edge. It is going to be one thick heavy sweater. The fabric is still pliable and all. I'm using Caron Sayelle. For acrylic, it is nice and soft but dense. I figure for a sweater for a 6 year old boy, I'm not using expensive yarn.

Since the sweater is turning out so heavy, I'm going to adjust the pattern to be a cardigan. I've just got to do a big of math and make some diagrams. So far I've got 2 stripes done and the edging. The stripes are 10 rows by 72 stitches. Once I get another 2 stripes done, I'll figure up exactly what my gauge is.

I'm hoping by turning the sweater into a cardigan that I'll end up having enough yarn for it. *blush* I found this pattern a few months ago and ordered the yarn off of Herrshner's. I probably ordered the yarn late at night and didn't look at the pattern properly. It calls for 150 meters (165 yards) of 7 colors. Well I ordered 7 skeins of yarn that are 150 YARDS each. doh I don't mind ordering another skein of the edging color, but I don't want to order another skein of each color and have tons of left overs. I suppose I could make a matching hat with smaller stripes. sigh

Question time. I noticed that when I left the sweater sit on the needles while I was eating dinner that it caused the stitches on that row to look different when I got farther into the sweater. Will this relax after awhile? When I was done knitting tonight, I put the live stitches on a piece of yarn to avoid the problem, but I don't always have enough time to do that when I have to run off after Nick. Is this just a problem with acrylic? I haven't really noticed this with the other yarns I've used. It may be cause I'm knitting on such small needles with worsted weight yarn.

I think I'm going to do some digging and see if I have any size 4 circs. At least when I'm not knitting I can slide the sweater onto the cable.

Well, I'm gonna go fold some laundry. Maybe if I take a shower it will help me feel more alive.

Friday night

I've been a bad bad girl. I just ordered 3 skeins of Cascade 220. Ok so it was 40% off. hehe Bo Peep's Wool Shop is having a sale until January 1st. All in-stock yarns (except Sisik) and needles (except Brittany) on sale at 40% off and all in-stock books on sale at 20% off. The yarn should go well with the 3 skeins I have for my long waiting felted knitting bag. It should be enough to make the messenger bag on Knitty.

I started Nick's sweater. I have the garter stitch edging done for the back. No pictures cause how exciting can 10 rows of white garter stitch be?? I had to go down to a 5 in order to get gauge. I did the edging on 4s but man it looks way wider than my gauge on the 5s in stockinette (sp?). I need to get a size 5 circular to do the body on. I've only got 5s in dpns. Tomorrow I'm taking down the Christmas tree and I'm going to do laundry. Maybe then I'll be able to get to all of my knitting stuff and sort all my damn needles. hehe Well, I guess I do know where a pair of single point 5s are at but they are a real flexible plastic. I just know that the yarn will stick on it and the needles will bend when I'm using them.

I'm almost halfway into the last skein of Andean Silk for my blue celtic scarf. It is going to be plenty long enough when I'm done. I'm thinking that the next time I make a cabled scarf, I'm going to just put a plain knit edge on it. With the reverse stockinette base of the cable, I'm thinking the knit edge will counteract the curl or just make what looks like an i-cord edge when it curls. I pray that blocking will make this scarf lay flat. I also hope that it stays nice and soft. Don't want much do I? hehe

Ok, time to get my boring butt to bed. Night y'all.

Well crap!!

Things are just not working out today.

I set out looking for the yarn store in Galena only to discover my truck was being an ass. I guess all the humidity finally got to it cause it was missing like crazy. I put a bottle of heat in it and it is running fine now. I never did find the yarn store. It's called Fiber Wild. I couldn't think of the name while I was driving around but knew the word fiber was in it. I forgot to write down the address or look at a map to see exactly where it was at. DUH!!! I've updated my file on it and the next time I go off looking for it, I'll print it off.

I tried leaving Shelly a comment earlier wishing her luck in finding a better job and commiserating on the whole headache problem. But Blogger comments were being an ass. I was typing in the right letters but it kept coming back and it wouldn't change the pic so I could try new ones. pppppbbbbblllllttttt!!!!!! Anyways good luck dear.

I spent some of my Christmas money and picked up a handbag at Wal-Mart that looks perfect for a knitting bag. I paid a whopping $3 for it. hehe It should work great for small projects like socks or doilies. I just need to start making working copies of my patterns instead of carting off the books or magazines and wrecking them. I also picked up 3 more knitting magazines. 2 of them are English magazines. Simply Knitting and Knitting. They were so not worth the $9 and $8 respectively that I paid for them. At least the copy of SK came with a knitting diary. There are a few projects in each of them that will work as inspiration for future works, but I won't be buying these magazines again. The other magazine is the fall 2005 issue of InKnitters. This one was a much better buy. I found a couple patterns already in my size that I like, along with a couple others that I would like to modify for my use. I really like the sweater on the cover. Well I would if you cut off that damn tail on the side. hehehe I may try to modify it to just end below the hips with the cable band.

Anyways, I'm off to read some more mail. I tried putting a collar on my green sweater and ripped that out. I think I'll switch over to working on the kids sweater. I just have to figure out which needles to use. Man I need more needles!!!! I can never find the size I need. hehe

I dunno

That is just so me. hehe Go play and see what you can come up with.

I started working on the mystery shawl 2. I had it to the first few rows of chart 2 when I messed up. My head hurt too much to mess with it so I snapped the thread and tossed it. hehe I think I need to repeat chart 1 twice anyways. I'm using my ultra thin gray wool. I did manage to do a sort of russian join on it when it snapped on me once. I couldn't even figure out where the join was later on.

I finished up my panta. No picture just yet cause I'm beat. Maybe tomorrow after we get back from shopping. I've finished the second skein of yarn on my cletic knot scarf. I think that just the 3 skeins will work just fine. It is going to take major blocking to keep the sides from curling. Someday I'll figure out how to keep the damn scarves from curling in. The cable is on reverse stockinette and I put 3 stitches of garter on the edges. I thought that was supposed to keep the sides from curling. NOT!!

Ok, time to chase the kid off to bed and then pass out. Gonna take my Christmas money and do a road trip to a yarn shop I just discovered about a half hour from here. WWWhhhhhhheeeee!!!

4 a.m. is way too early

That is what time Nick woke me up. I let him stay up for about a half hour but we were both havin trouble keeping our eyes open so I made him go back to bed. He had a wonderful day. I of course bought him two of the same dang book. Man I'm a ditz.

I've done a lil searching and here are the books that my brother bought me. I still have no clue what magazine he got for me. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.







I'm thinking I'll be doing the Best Friend jacket shown on the cover of The Knit Stitch. I've got some hemp/wool that I want to make a jacket with. I'm a pita so I'll be making the fronts even. I guess I'm one of the 10% that doesn't like things uneven. hehe Actually, I just don't want people thinking I screwed it up. :OP I'm also wanting to make the short version of the Einstein coat. I don't know if the miles of garter stitch is going to drive me crazy or not though. hehehe I guess I'll have to have a lace shawl going at the same time for switching off to.

I've got to finish my green sweater and make Nick's striped one first though. The blue scarf I was making for Kelly is going to be frogged. A double knit scarf, while warm, is boring to knit even with the twisted stitches I added on the one side. I'll be putting Joe's scarf aside to finish some time later when I'm bored. It is too far along to frog.

Everyone liked their hats. Joe's green and cream hat was just a tad too long. Kelly's hat was huge on her. I didn't realize she has such a small noggin. Dad's hats fit well once Mom made him pull them on right. Mom loved her doilies. I tried dyeing the smaller one yellow cause of a small stain on it's edge. I guess I had to prove to myself that cotton can not be dyed with kool-aid. hehehe The whole process took the lil stain out though so all was well in the end.

Random Thoughts

Being Santa sucks!!! Especially when you live in a small house with a child that sleeps very lightly. Nick wakes up at least twice a night. Once to go pee and once to sneak into my room to sleep. There is only one real place in this house to hide anything from him. My closet. Normally there is a laundry basket in front of the door so it isn't a big deal to barricade it. Unfortunately in order to get to the living room from my room, I have to go right by his bedroom door. It isn't easy to keep sneaking out carrying shopping bags and trying to keep the bags from rustling loud enough to wake him. He hasn't woken up in the middle of "Santa" visiting the house yet. I fear that is coming one of these years. All this sneaking around reminds me too much of when I lived at home. hehehe Man I want a bigger place.

And now for something completely different.

I thought of something tonight while playing JT's Blocks on Yahoo. If you haven't played it, it is a game where you removed groups of blocks and try to clear the board. Anyways, it is a game that has a chat room even though it is a single player game. If you have ever played a game on Yahoo that has a chat room, you know that they are constantly spammed. It is always someone claiming to be a hot college chick sitting home alone and needing someone to chat with. Oh and they have a web site where you can see their pictures.

On one hand, the question is, Who the hell is dumb enough to follow their links? I mean, chances are you are going to end up with a virus or trojan after visiting the site. Plus, they probably end up charging you. There are plenty of free porn sites out there. Why pay for the crap?

On the other hand, why don't they ever say they are a hot young stud looking for a lady to chat with? Come on don't the ladies deserve some hot porn? Don't they think that women are dumb enough to believe them? Or do they realize that most of us are smart enough to think that any guy who is home alone and bored enough to go trolling in chat rooms for company must be some ugly ass geek? Only a guy who be dumb enough to believe there is some hot young thing just dying to chat them up and show them naughty pictures. hehe Anyways, at least when you go searching for porn, chances are you will find just what you are looking for. Then again, I still haven't found any naked pictures of George Bush. gahhhhhh Thank the sweet lord. hehe

In other news. My dear sweet brother spoiled me rotten this year. He visited my wish list on Amazon and got me 3 books and a subscription to a knitting magazine. I'm too damn tired to go searching for links and pics of the books right now. Maybe tomorrow, or should I say tonight seeing as it is after 2am.

Have a Merry Christmas everybody!!!

Finally

Well, I finally got Dad's second hat done.



Click on it if you want to see it a lil bigger. I used 4s this time for the ribbing. The stripes started out random but it was taking too much brain power to make them look even. hehehe

I've got all my knitting done and all my gifts bought. Last year I was up until 2am on Christmas morning trying to finish my brother's afghan. I ended up having to get up after about 4 hours and I had to work on it for a couple more hours.

Now I've got to wrap everything. lol Doubt it will happen tonight. My poor head is hurting.

Have a very Merry Christmas y'all.

If I get anything super cool I'll blog about it when I get home tomorrow. Otherwise, who knows. hehe I'll prolly have a ham hangover because Mom is making a big one and I love her hams.

gggggaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Why are children such pains???

I've got a huge cone of very very thin wool. It is finer than sewing thread. Yes I know it is for machine knitting. Did I know the it was so thin when I bought if off eBay? uhhh No. Anyways, I'm winding it into big balls in hopes to make a shawl. Yeah I said it. I want BIG BALLS!! hehehe

Well I was about half way through winding a ball of this stuff and everything was going fine. That of course was until my son decided it was time to fuck with mommy. The moment his little fingers toughed the thread it snapped. gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr

I'm just so damned pissed. I'm wanting to do this shawl without having to weave in any ends in the middle of it. I'm going to double the thread so it isn't so dang thin but now I've waisted all that dang winding on this ball. While there is a lot of it on the winder right now, I seriously doubt it is enough for a shawl. sigh

Yeah, no picture of my dad's hat yet. Why? Cause I don't feel like scanning 4 inches of ribbing. I've still got another 4 inches to go before I start the top of the hat. I doubt I will work on it tonight. I've got to go clean the house up. My mom will be here in the morning to put my son on the van for school. She will blow a gasket if she sees that the ornament boxes are still in the living room. hehe

Uncle

Well, I've given up on most of my Christmas knitting. Mostly it is cause I just didn't want to knit most of it. There will be no scarves for my bro and his girl. The mosaic scarf I started for my bro rolled in on it something fierce. I've decided to try and do it in the round and seam up the long ends. No way will it be done for Christmas, so it will eventually be mine. :OP Kelly's scarf is double knit in just the blue with a very faint cable in it. It is only about 1/5 done. So, another scarf for me. wwwwwhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeee

Twinkletoes yarn just isn't soft enough for a hat, so Mom isn't getting a hat. She went and bought herself a chenille hat anyway. wtf? She can't ask me to knit her a hat? Her scarf in MCY is only about 3 inches long. She will get it next year for Christmas. hehe I've got 2 or 3 doilies that I've made her. I'll block those later today.

I do have another hat in the works for Dad. It was going to be random stripes of the dark gray from his first hat and the green and cream from my bro's hat. I've decided that there will only be 2 or 3 stripes of the cream in the hat. It is a much softer, fuzzier yarn. This is weird cause it is all Wool-Ease yarn. I dunno why the cream feels so much different. I've only got about 2 inches done, so no picture yet. I need to put in some dvds and just knit and get off this damn computer for awhile and I'll finish the hat in time. I'm doing the rib on size 4s instead of 5s. It is much tighter and I think it looks much better. I'm still going to do the body of the hat on size 6s. I like how the body on the first hat looks.

What ever is left of the Wool-Ease is going to making myself some pantas. Don't know what that is? Check out the pattern on Craftster. I think it's pretty nifty. I wonder if I have enough of the blue alpaca to do one with the yarn doubled. I think that would look more like a headband. I so need some more headbands. I have two old ones that I wear to work cause it makes me nuts having my hair fall in my face when I'm working. I've only had these headbands for like 15 years. hehe I can't wear the hard ones cause I have such a fat head. I get an instant headache when I put them on. Hell even the cloth ones will give me a headache if I'm already edging towards one.

Anyways, I'm off to clean up the house and go finish my shopping. I have no freakin clue what to buy my brother and my dad. I've got to find some damn legos for Nick. God knows we need more so that there is no chance of me walking to the kitchen without stepping on at least five. hehe

empty

I'm up too late once again.

Sleep isn't coming for me.

My mind is a whirl of emotions.

I can't think straight.

I reach my hand out for you.

Just to touch, to feel, to hold

I don't want to be all alone here in the dark

Reaching out, reaching out but you're not there

There's nothing there

I'm incased in the nothing

I'm here alone in the darkness

It's oh so cold here in my room

I can not find the light

I'm reaching out but all I find is emptiness

It is so thick I can not move

I'm running in a pool of wet cement

The emptiness pulls at me, encasing me

I can't escape from the vastness of my pain

It won't let me go

I sink deeper into the darkness

Engulfed in it's vastness I disappear

Knitting??

Yup this is actually a knitting blog. I have a picture to prove it.



I finally finished Dad's first hat. I think I made the pic a lil too bright, but the colors are pretty accurate. I think if I do this pattern again, I'll end up using size 4s for the ribbing. The stitches just seem a bit too loose.

I got the 3 cones of cotton today. I would say that it is just a bit smaller than size 10 crochet thread. I'm going to do some swatches using 2 and 3 strands and wash them to see how they look. I'm thinking that I'll make a summer twin set with it. The color in the pic is pretty close to the real thing.

Do you hear me

Do you care
Do you hear me
Do you care

My lips are moving and the sound's coming out
The words are audible but I have my doubts
That you realize what has been said
You look at me as if you're in a daze
It's like the feeling at the end of the page
when you realize you don't know what you just read

What are words for when no one listens anymore
What are words for when no one listens
What are words for when no one listens it's no use talkin at all

I might as well go up and talk to a wall
'cause all the words are having no effect at all
It's a funny thing am I all alone

Something has to happen to change the direction
What little filters through is giving you the wrong impression
It's a sorry state I say to myself

What are words for when no one listens anymore
What are words for when no one listens
What are words for when no one listens it's no use talkin at all

Do you hear me
Do you care
Do you hear me
Do you care

Let me get by
Over your dead body
Hope to see you soon
When will I know
Doors three feet wide with no locks open
Walking always backwards in the faces of strangers
Time could be my friend
But it's less than nowhere now
less than nowhere now
less than nowhere now
now
ow ow ow

Pursue it further and another thing you'll find
Not only are they deaf and dumb they could be going blind and no one notices
I think I'll dye my hair blue

Media overload bombarding you with action
It's getting near impossible to cause distraction
Someone answer me before I pull out the plug

What are words for when no one listens anymore
What are words for when no one listens
What are words for when no one listens it's no use talkin at all

What are words for when no one listens anymore
What are words for when no one listens
What are words for when no one listens it's no use talkin at all

Do you hear me
Do you care
Do you hear me
Do you care
tell me what are words for
Do you hear me
tell me what are words for
Do you care
tell me what are words for
Do you hear me
so tell me what are words for
Do you care
so tell me what are words for
Do you hear me
tell me what are words for
so tell me what are words for
Do you care
so tell me what are words for
Do you hear me
tell me what are words for
so tell me what are words for
Do you care
so tell me what are words for

Missing Persons - Words

Snow day

School was canceled today. When I called in to the temp agency I was told that no one was scheduled to work where I was working at. So I'm home with the kid.

Have I done anything? uhhhh Are you kidding? I'm working up the energy to go do some cleaning. I have to finish decorating the tree and put the boxes back out in the garage. Nick could only reach up so far, so I have to do the top of the tree.

I'm sitting here scanning eBay for knitting patterns. There isn't much really listed in that section. I've got tons of patterns so I have no freakin clue why I'm looking. lol

I hate winter

The days are too damn short and it is too cold. I still can't use the heat in my truck without messing up the windshield. At least sitting in a closed truck I don't have to deal with wind chill. Tonight we are supposed to get between 4 and 7 inches of snow. I'm not 100% sure I'll have to in to work anyway.

I don't particularly like the month of December. I hate trying to figure out what to give to my family. I try to avoid the whole thing as much as possible. It does however keep my mind off other things. I totally glazed over a major anniversary a few days back. I didn't realize it until about 4 days later. It's not that I don't think about the day all the time. But when the actual day rolled around, there was no major breakdown. No tears. No drinking. (I think I drank all the booze the week before. hehe)

I haven't even teared up about it until now when I actually wrote about it. I've been composing this post in my mind for the last week. Twelve years ago this month, I lost one of my very best friends in a car accident. I still miss her and dream about her often. The reason it is hard for me to deal with even now, is that I was the one driving the car. We were out joy riding that night. When we realized what time it was, I had to try and rush her home before curfew. Her mom was so totally strict it wasn't funny. I don't remember the actual crash. When I was thrown out of the car I landed on the back of my head. My memory ended about half an hour before the crash.

Manda's life ended that night and my world was torn in two. It makes me feel so horrible to moan about the things I've lost because of the accident because she lost everything. I don't blame myself for her death, but I still feel so guilty. I spent a good deal of time pissed off at God, trying to make some sort of deal with him. As much as I loved her, still love her, I would give up having known her if that meant she would have lived. Part of me still would take that deal in a heartbeat, even knowing that my life would have turned out different. I wouldn't have my son. Maybe I would have met someone else and had kids with him. I wouldn't want to give up my son but I would give anything to have Manda back.

Uggghhhhh I shouldn't blog about upsetting things when I was already blue to begin with. I really should just go to bed. Maybe school and work will get called off and I'll get to sleep in. hehe

Feel like crying

I've got a bit of a headache, so I've got the tv turned down. I can hear a baby next door bawling it's little head off. I don't know if it is the little girl who is about 4 months old or so. Or the 1 year old boy. I'm thinking it is the little girl. It is just breaking my heart listening to her. The only other voice I've heard over there was one of the older boys. I'm sure the mom is at work and the dad is too busy getting drunk to care that his baby is crying. I'm not the greatest mom in the world but I pray that someday they have their kids taken away. I've seen lots of little things that upset me but none are big enough for DHS to do anything.

I guess I'll go watch Dr. Phil and let all the freaks on there put my life in perspective.

hhrmmppff

I'm having one of those days where I just don't feel like doing anything.

I'm trying to stay away from eBay but it isn't working too well. I just spent an hour surfing on there. I started out looking for Delta Burke knitting patterns and ended up looking at clothes. hehe I've only got 2 of her knitting patterns. Some of her clothes are really nice. Well if you ignore the stuff with the bows and the big collars. The intimates under her label are real nice. I damn near bid on some bras. I'm just so totally picky about that sort of thing.

I haven't cast on for any knew projects. I so want to. I'm just not inspired to work on any of the things I have going right now. I'm almost done with the ribbing on Dad's first hat. I'm just so sick of k1p2 ribbing. I don't know why it is bugging me so much. shrug

Ok off to drool over Matt Damon in The Bourne Supremacy and mourn over his marriage. lol Nah I'm not that kind of stalker. I don't begrudge anyone their happiness. True, I would love to be with someone like him but I have no chance of meeting him let alone snagging him. lol Sometimes Iowa sucks, but hey, at least we don't get hurricanes.

blah blah blah

Not much to report here.

I'm back working at the distribution center.

The heater core (I have no real clue) in my truck is leaking antifreeze. Basically, I can either be warm or I can see the road. The only thing that will clean the haze off the inside of the windshield is vinegar. My truck smells so wonderful. I put some StopLeak in the radiator but I'm a dumbass and had left it in the truck over night first. It was total sludge and I didn't realize it separated. I really don't think it has helped at all. I'm thinking of getting the oil changed early and seeing if they will flush the radiator. After that I'll put a fresh bottle of StopLeak in as opposed to the frozen mess.

I'm slowly working on my dad's first hat. It is stripes of Oxford Grey and Pines Wool-Ease. It is just a basic stocking cap pattern. It is written for one color, but I'm doing 2 rows of each color. I'm also working on a cotton hat with a large visor for my mom during the summer. Yeah I know I've mentioned them before. I haven't cast on for anything new. I can't knit at work so I haven't been working on anything much at all.

My adventures on eBay haven't been real outrageous. I've been putting minimum bids in on the stuff I am interested in but cause I don't really wanna spend much money right now I'm not pursuing them much. I know I told ya about the last thin wool yarn I got. I'm thinking either I will do a quick dye of blue on it or pair the yarn up with a thicker blue wool. If I pair it up it will end up being a felted bag of some sort. The other night I won a shitload of cotton yarn. There is about 15,600 yards of it. Ok so it is 8/2 cotton and has 3360 ypp. I'm thinkin that is pretty damn thin. hehehe It's on 3 cones, so I'm hoping that if I knit off all 3 cones at the same time I'll get something I can work with. If not, I'll have to wind some large balls and figure out how many strands I need. I've got some super fine wool thread that I have to use like 5 or 6 strands of it to get something approaching fingering weight. Once of these days I'll wind it into balls and knit a scarf or something with it.

Well time for bed. I'm pooped.

Nobody likes me

Everybody hates me
Guess I'll go eat worms
Long, thin, slimy ones;
Short, fat, juicy ones,
Itsy, bitsy, fuzzy wuzzy worms.

Nah I think I'll go eat pizza instead.

ugghhhh

It seems that the neighbor has decided to start a campaign of harassment. All day when his wife was home it was quiet. Ok so the power was out for 3 hours, that isn't the point. Stop distracting me from the story. :OP Anyways for at least the last hour he has had the stereo loud enough that the bass is vibrating the wall. Yes I can still hear the TV. But it sounds like some moron with a loud car stereo is sitting next to my house with his stereo full blast. Another thing that I find very annoying is the fact that they have 3 children under the age of 4 in that house. You can't tell me that he isn't doing damage to their hearing. He sure as hell better turn it down by 10. I'll tell him once to turn it down. If he doesn't or turns it up again, I'm callin the sheriff's office again. I'll make sure they know how long it has been on and how many young children are living in the house. sigh

In fiber news, I got a huge ass skein of wool yarn from an eBay seller today. It is sooooo soft. I think there is like 800 yards in the skein too. The colors are way too bright, but maybe I'll make a weak dye bath of blue dye and darken it some. That will get rid of the bright pink parts. hehe I went over to Jo-Anne's to get some more Wool-Ease for my dad's hat. I got 2 skeins of variegated yarn in Wood and Pines. I also got a skein of Oxford Grey. I already had a skein of this, so I'll combine the grey with the other two colors and make him a green/grey hat and a brown/grey hat. I picked up a copy of knit.1. I hadn't heard great things about the magazine but there are some hat patterns in there. Out of all the magazines I have and the saved free patterns, I only found one hat pattern I liked. LOL This will allow me to do 2 different hats. I've also cast on for a knit baseball/visor hat for my mom. She is very sun sensitive, and hopefully this will help her out next summer.

Almost forgot. They had a bunch of stuff on clearance over at Jo-Anne's. I got a bunch of plastic circular knitting needles for like 1.99. Yeah, plastic needles are not so great, but I got some sizes that I didn't have before.

A study in boredom

The power was out for 3 hours this morning. It got damn chilly in the house. They furnace is gas but ya need electricity to run the blower.

I spent the time knitting on one of the scarves I'm making for my mom and looking for a hat pattern for my dad. I may end up using Jon's pattern, Hack. Link to Jon's site is over there <----, look for Colorado Knits. Basically I'm looking for a hat I can do using 2 colors of Wool-Ease.

I think I'm gonna head to the home improvement store (no not the one that fired me) and get some wood to make a small book shelf. I've got so many knitting books and magazines and no place to really have them handy. The shelves I've got on my desk aren't tall enough to have 2 shelves of books. And anyway, they are full of movies and computer stuff. hehe I was thinking of putting the book case on my dresser, but I'm thinking that putting it on top of the one side of my desk would be better. I can make it a bit wider. I just have to clear a bunch of junk off the top of the hutch. Yeah my room is cluttered. Deal with it. :OP I've got a cluttered mind so my room reflects it. hehe Yup yup I do believe I'll put the shelf on top of the hutch. Hell then I don't have to go leaning over the piles of junk in the corner of the room. roflmao

Update on me

Well, I didn't end up calling the sheriff again. I figured the music wasn't half as loud as it was before and I really wasn't interested in pissin this guy off more than he probably was when the sheriff knocked on his door the first time. hehe

I got my new AERO needles in the mail on Saturday. Just kind of slipped my mind. What mind?? She sent me 9 sets of dpns and 8 circs. So I ended up with 4 extra sets all together. Pretty sweet if ya ask me. The pouches them came in don't reflect the sizes of the needles though. I do know there is everything from size 2 to size 10. I just have to measure em and mark the pouches.

I started my brother's scarf tonight. I'm too lazy to scan it right now. Basically it has 2 repeats of the mosaic pattern with k2p2k2 on each side. Each side switches on each row though. I guess it is kind of a wide moss stitch. I'm too lazy to look in my stitch library and see if it has a name. :OP

I took a cute quiz a bit ago. I think I got it off of Wendy's site. Link for Wendy is over <----. I'm a total wolf fanatic. Hell, my son's middle name is Christopher-Wolf. He acts more like a tasmanian devil though. hehe Nah, he isn't mean. He is just real stubborn, messy and whiney. Hmmm Sounds like me. hehe Well, I try not to be too whiney. I do complain a lot. I need more joy in my life. That might help. Hell just give me some damn sex and I'll be happy. hehehe


You're an alpha female. You're second best.
Basically, you make babies. And there's no
shame in that. You are almost as strong as your
mate. You keep the rest of the women in line.
Anyone who comes near your pups is mince meat.


What kind of wolf are you?
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Onward the madness

SOB turned the stereo again at 1:40 a.m. I figure give him 5 minutes to be an asshole. Once I realize he isn't turning it off and in fact has turned up the volume, I called the sheriff's office. Ain't nothing like a pissed off fat chick. I may be fat, but I can always (and am) lose weight. He will always be a freakin moron. I could hear the bass in my living room.

A couple minutes ago, I was looking out the kitchen window and saw a trooper walking down our driveway. I have no clue where he parked cause I can't see his car from the house. So far no more music. I will not hesitate to call the sheriff's office again.

Now, let's see if my truck makes it through the night unscathed. hehehe It's a piece of shit 1990 Bravada, but it still runs good and the heat and air work.

update: Just as I was about to post this, the freak turned the stereo back on. What a damn moron.

omg I'm sooooo pissed

Here it is freakin midnight and the asshole next door had his stereo blasting. Our bedrooms are on opposite sides of the main wall of our duplex and all I could freakin hear in my room is thumping. No I wasn't anywhere near ready to go to bed but it's freakin midnight. They have 2 babies over there and he has the stereo blasting in the middle of the night. Then again I think his wife may not be home with the kids cause he has some chick over there. When I told him to turn the stereo down he said to take my fat ass home. He is so lucky he wasn't standing on the porch and there was a door between us. If I hear one more thump, no matter how loud, I'm calling the cops. I'll also be warning the police to be on the lookout for drugs over there. I have never been anything but nice to them over there and he freakin insults me after disturbing my damn evening!!! I'm so pissed the muscles in my neck are freakin hurting like hell.

I'll be relaying this little episode to my dad. Yeah he is an ass himself but he is one super over protective ass. He isn't above harassing someone for being mean to me. Of course that doesn't stop him from being a royal shit. hehe

He did drive the 10 miles here tonight on bad roads to bring me a can of gas for my snow blower. I was going to go out there and get a can cause I don't have one, but Mom was worried about me driving on the snowy roads. Yeah, I'm spoiled. BITE ME!! hehe Sometimes having overbearing parents comes in handy. :OP I just really wanted to play with use the snow blower cause shoveling hurts my back. I'm really starting to take the idea of a breast reduction seriously. That's a different story though. hehe

Well, I'm feeling better now. I still want to hurt the guy, but my neck is feeling better.

yeah i'm alive

I've been workin my poor fingers to the bone at work. Yesterday was actually a pretty good day right up until the point when they laid off all the temp workers. sigh

I'm currently working of a lacey scarf for my mom. Actually there are two of them. I'm not sure which one I like better but I'm leaning towards the Mystical Yarn Creations fingering weight scarf. It is in shades of purple and blue. I forget the name of the colorway. The other scarf is in Twinkletoes sock yarn that I just got. The Twinkletoes is a thicker yarn by far and it just isn't as lacey looking as I want it to be. Mom got a new black leather coat and I want the scarf to be something special to wear with it.

I still have to work on the scarves for my brother and his lady. I'll have to do them on circs or change needle size because last night I discovered that one of my dpns was snapped clean in half. sniff sniff I was using plastic dpns so I wasn't afraid of them breaking. In fact the one was all bent from being half melted. hehe I had run hot water over it and used a hairdryer to get it flexible enough to straighten it. Oh well. I'm sure I'll be getting my AERO needles in the mail pretty soon. I've got some yarn coming from eBay too. I swear I didn't think I would win the auction. I just put in the minimum bid figuring that someone else would bid on it and win. hehe

Well, I'm off to work on Mom's scarf. I think I'll go across the street and get lunch. I need to go grocery shopping though. uggghhhhh I don't really need to pick up much but I really need to get some milk. Any volunteers to go pick some up for me? hehe

wip

Well I couldn't snag Mom's old camera cause my brother was still at her house when I left. He was the one who bought it for her and I don't wanna piss him off by snaggin it. hehe I figured I had better share some more of my current knitting projects with y'all though.



This is my Celtic Cable scarf. I'm using the Knit Picks Andean Silk that my SP5 partner sent me. The color is Bluebell. I've just started the second skein and it is about 19" long. Once I've got the 3rd skein finished I'll decide if I need to order another one. Hopefully it will stop curling so bad when I get it blocked. The reverse stocking stitch and garter stitch border are rolling in big time. I had to smush it pretty bad when I scanned it to get it to lay flat. hehe

I'm tryin like hell to keep myself away from eBay. In the last 2 weeks I've ordered 2 skeins of Twinkletoes fingering wt wool to make scarves with. One skein is in autumn colors and the other is blue and purples. I also won 2 auctions for AERO knitting needles. I just love those things. I won one auction for 8 sets of dpns and one auction for 5 circs. The seller is so awesome. I paid as soon as she sent me an invoice cause I wasn't sure of the shipping from Canada and I included a note about how much I love AERO needles and hooks. She wrote back that she found a couple more pairs and tossed them in as a bonus. I'm so tickled. I just love the enamel finish on the needles and hooks. I'm always looking for them on eBay but I usually lose out in the end. sigh

Well time to get some mail done and then get my happy ass to bed. It's back to school for the kid and back to work for me tomorrow. blahh

still alive...

but barely. I woke up this morning with a horrible horrible headache and it just will not go away. I think part of it was being pissed off at my brother yesterday. I was really upset that he didn't call me when he was in town at his girlfriend's grandma's for Thanksgiving dinner. Turns out he did know that my folks went to Michigan and he thought my son and I went along with. I guess I'll just have to wait to kill him. hehe

I finished the blue and fisherman mosaic hat today. I prolly would have had it done last night if I hadn't of had to rip it back so many damn times last night. I didn't have any stitch markers with me and I kept messing up the first row of the mosaic.



Here is a scan of the green hat too. The two different sizes look so different. I'm assuming that the blue hat, which is the small size, is supposed to be longer so it can be rolled up. The green/large hat fits my big ole fat head pretty good. hehe



I may get to take pics once in awhile now. My pain in the butt parents bought themselves another digital camera. They wanted to get a photo printer and it only cost another $70 for the camera too. It is a very nice camera. I would so love to snitch it from them. hehehe Mom has said I can borrow the old camera. Man I so want to get a good camera.

Well, time to get a shower and lay down. It is going to be so wonderful to sleep in my own bed tonight.

Happy Turkey Day!!

I hope all of y'all are having yourselves a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Make sure that you give special thanks for your family and friends. Also say a special prayer for our brothers and sisters in arms this holiday season.

I'm off to watch a movie and try to restrain myself from making nasty phone calls. hehehehe

Oh the agony

Did you know that using a palm sander for 6 hours a day can cause severe pain? My hands and arms are so sore I could scream. I know on the drive home from work people must have thought I was insane. I was driving one handed while flexing my other arm and hand. It sort of looked like I was trying to vogue. hehehe



Well, here is a crappy pic of the hat I made for my brother for Christmas. It's the Make It Mosaic Hat from the Nov 2005 issue of Creative Knitting. I used Lion Brand Wool-Ease in Forest Green Heather and Fisherman. I had it mostly done in 2 days. I was being a moron and didn't follow directions and had to rip out quite a bit. I'm going to do the smaller version in Blue Mist and Fisherman for my bro's girlfriend. I was going to do a burgundy color but Joanne's only had one skein and I needed 2 at least. I'm also going to see if I can figure out how to make a scarf to match.

Well, I'm off to pack up some clothes and lots of yarn. Nick and I are going to go stay the night at my folk's house. They are visiting my great aunt in Michigan and I usually house sit while they are gone. They don't really need a housesitter now that they have moved, but they have cable and a big screen tv. hehehe I'm going to sit my big ole butt on a nice soft recliner and knit away my Thanksgiving. I'm thinking I'll have pizza for dinner tomorrow. We are going to have the big turkey dinner on Sunday.

Happy turkey day y'all.

shit

Well, I finally hooked my piece of shit camera up tonight. I had every intention of uploading the pictures of the shawl and of the kid. You can barely tell there is a shawl or anything else in the pics. I just give up with that damn thing. After Christmas I'll save up and get myself a halfway decent camera. I'm pretty sure the folks will be taking their camera to Michigan with them tomorrow, so it will be at least a week before I can get ahold of it.

I went to get myself a tracphone for emergencies tonight. I'll be doing lots of highway driving back and forth to the new job. I'm a bit nervous about driving in the dark on potentially icy roads when the houses are few and far between. I haven't put a car in the ditch in over 5 years, but I don't want to get stuck in a snow bank with the kid in the truck. I was at the checkout when I realized I didn't have my wallet on me. hehehe I only had $15 in my pocket. I had to pick up my Pepsi and pizza though. Got the kid some chicken nuggets and he actually ate the damn things. It's been months since he has actually eaten em.

Maybe tomorrow I'll scan my latest WIPS. I've got a hat I'm working on for my brother. I have to rip it back some cause boy howdy is it too big. hehe I've got a baby blue scarf in the works for myself too along with the blue and boa scarf. I've got to add on to the green hat that I made for Nick. My mom has decided that it doesn't cover his ears enough. I'm going to add on some garter stitch to the bottom to create more to fold back. I was going to do that before I sewed it up but silly me, I thought it was already big enough. :OP

WWWHHHHEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

I'm back. New power supply and double the memory I had before. I think I still have a fan that needs to be replaced. Still, the pc is running great. I'm too pooped to get pics off my camera tonight. I'll try tomorrow after work. Oh btw, I was no where near the tornados that hit the other day here in Iowa. It was windy here but nothing dangerous. Now we are dealing with snow!!! hehehe Can't wait to play with my new snowblower.

BBS

I'm gonna be scarce for a bit. I guess my dad has flipped his damn lid. I just got an e-mail from my mom that if I don't bring my son's pc (which they bought) over to their house tomorrow the shit is going to hit the fan. In the mood I'm in right now I would throw the damn computer at my dad if he was here right now. The man needs medication. Lots of it. Hell as stupid as he is he would probably overdose on it. *BEG*

Can ya tell that I was already in a shitty mood? Last week my stepmom called and invited me to dinner this weekend. Well I put it off until today to call and tell her no. Actually I kind of blanked on it and kept forgetting to call. I called the house today and guess who picked up the phone. My biological dad. He is as big an asshole as the one my mom is married to now. Just talking to him pissed me off and I told him off and hung up on him. I'm debating on if I'm going to call and try to talk to my stepmom. I don't really like her much either.

I did cast on for the acrylic wonder scarf. I can't knit with the plush and boa at the same time. The boa gets totally hidden. Basically, I'm going to do stripes of the boa every once in awhile. I ordered the last part I need to fix my pc and hopefully I'll have it by Tuesday or Wednesday. Didn't work on the knitting bag at all today. My head hurts to much to think about listening to the sewing machine going. I woke up with a nasty headache and it has yet to go away. At least my back is feeling better finally.

Well, I'm gonna sign off and go to bed. I'm gonna burn all my shit off the computer in the morning and clear it all off here. Nothing incriminating on here. My life is too damn boring for that. :OP I just hate the idea of my dad going through my things. I know he was in my room on Thursday. I wish like hell I had someone around here that could babysit for me regularly so I didn't have to rely on the asshole to get my son on the bus in the morning. I would be just peachy about never seeing either of my so called fathers again. Men are just fucking assholes. The kid is a pain in the ass but he doesn't mean to be. Is just a fact of his gender and his age. hehe All 6 year olds are pains and doubly so when they are boys. :OP He is just lucky I love him or he would be dead by now. J/K Don't no one go calling DHS on me. I don't even spank the brat.

Huh?!?!?!

Boy was I scratchin my head earlier. After work, I saw a guy walking that I've seen a few times before. Before he was always sitting, so what I saw was a tad unusual. At first I thought he had shorts on and had his jacket tied around his waist. It is still pretty nice around here and lots of people are still wearing shorts. It took me a good 30 seconds to realize he was wearing a kilt. Other than at weddings or on tv, I've never seen a guy wearing a kilt. This guy was coming out of his workplace. He works in a warehouse. I sure as heck hope he wasn't being too traditional. hehehehe It just struck me as odd to see a man wearing a kilt to work in buttcrack Iowa. Yes, I'm sure it was a kilt and not a skirt. He had all the regalia that goes with a kilt on it. Yes I do know of at least one guy that goes to work in a skirt, but it's because he is not traditional at all. When he went to his work's Christmas party dressed fully as a woman, he really freaked everyone out. hehe He doesn't wear makeup to work or falsies.

I got a bit creative last night. I've got a few pairs of jeans that have too many holes in them to wear or the whole is in a bad spot. I have no clue at all why the area around the left back pocket wears out in my jeans. Anyways, I cut the legs off of one pair and trimmed them a bit and opened them up flat. Then I cut a leg off of another pair and cut two long strips from it and sewed them in between the other legs the long way. I sewed up the bottom and holy crap, I'm halfway to making a knitting bag. hehehe I took another long strip and made a tube out of it and did some decorative stitches on it and it is going to become the strap. This weekend, I'm going to measure what I have and cut out the lining from the sheep fabric that I bought ions ago. I really had fun playing with the sewing machine. It can do all sorts of fancy stitches and I'm sure the more I mess with it, the more I'll discover.

I've also cast on for a cabled scarf. It is using a Celtic cable that I found in a book I just got. I don't think I'll have enough yarn to make a scarf long enough. I think I'll just make it as long as I can and then order enough yarn from KnitPicks to make it the right length. I may just end up letting the messed up part at the beginning bug the shit out of me and rip the whole thing out. hehehe I used the wrong cable cross over so there are purl stitches on the cable instead of the regular knit stitches. I've got another scarf idea in my head. I've got a scarf that I started using Red Heart Plush in Navy. Yeah, I know it is acrylic but it is nice and soft. What I started was in the afghan stitch but lord only knows what size hook I was using or where it may be now. I'm going to rip it out and start over. I did the unthinkable and bought a skein of Bernat Boa in Parrot. hehehehe This is the only skein of novelty yarn I've actually bought. I'm going to use it as an accent with the Plush. They didn't have a darker blue mix, so I got the dark purple mix. This is the yarn snobs nightmare. lol I think it will be kinda cool though.

Well my back is starting to hurt, so I'm gonna go watch a movie in my recliner. I may end up falling asleep though. hehehe I got up at 4:30 this morning. Dumb idea. hehe

The 80s are alive...

and well in the Midwest. I thought mall hair was a thing of the past. Unfortunately it isn't. Over the last few days I've seen at least 3 women that look like they are stuck in a Whitesnake video. The teasing and highlights are insane. I'm even seeing women wearing bright blue eyeshadow. OMG!!! Talk about yuck. Yesterday while I was out shopping I saw two women that were together and had the exact same haircut. Short and spikey with the exact same highlights. Even some of the clothes I've seen lately have been so 80s. We are talking super tight pants with the black leather belt with silver studs on it.

I'm having trouble with today's fashions too. Why the hell do perfectly normal sized women insist on wearing hip hugger jeans??? They have to be worn so damn tight in order to keep them up that even thin women end up having fat hanging over them. I was standing behind this one chick that had her love handles hanging over her pants, the crack of her ass showing and when she turned around her stomach was hanging over the waistband too. I can't even imagine trying to move while wearing these jeans. The moment you bend over your crack is there for the world to see. God forbid you actually sit down. It would be different if they wore longer shirts but nooooo they wear short shirts that don't hardly come to their belly buttons. About a month ago I saw a woman putting her kid into his car seat and literally 2/3 of her ass was hangin out there for the whole parking lot to see. And let me tell you, this was no small ass either. hehehehe

I went to the doctor this afternoon. I've been having lots of pain in my lower back on the left side. I didn't do anything to cause it to hurt. Hell I don't have very much feeling in that side of my body to begin with. For the last 5 days I've been having sharp pains when I turn to the left. I was worried that my kidney might have been infected. The doc says my back is having spasms. Because of all the meds I'm on he wouldn't even give me anything for it. He told me to take some Tylenol. Ummmmm yeah right. That crap doesn't do anything for me at all. Well if I take like 8 of them they start to help. I'm going to have to stay off the computer as much as possible. I guess I'll get some more knitting done this way. hehe

blech

The more fancy clothes I see the more I love my jeans and t-shirts. hehehe I have no clue why someone would want to spend over $150 for an outfit. I think my whole outfit I wore today cost about $60. That includes my shoes and glasses. hehehe

I was working away today when I got a bit of a start. First I see a fireman and a paramedic go by and then I see 3 more paramedics. Next thing I know 3 more came along with a stretcher. I guess one of the ladies in our department was having trouble breathing. This wasn't long before it was time to go, so I don't know if she is alright. I'm hoping it was an asthma attack and not a heart attack. Yeah I know asthma attacks can be nasty and even deadly. My son has asthma that is triggered by allergies. There are times when I think he is going to cough his poor head off his shoulders or his head is going to explode. He turns bright red and starts crying. He has the sort where he can't get the air out of his lungs. It doesn't scare him as much as it used to. He knows that his inhaler will help.

hangin

Was back at the department store warehouse handing clothes up. I gotta tell you, there are people out there with too damn much money and they need to send me some. Just in suits alone, I hung up $63,000 worth of clothes. For the price of one of these suits, I would want at least 4 if not 5 suits. I also was hanging up sweaters that ran for over $150. Yeah they were cashmere but damn. I want to find the woman that will buy the 24" waist jeans that ran almost $70 and ram a few cheeseburgers down her throat. I think I might steal her purse too cause she has too much money in the damn thing. hehehe

I went to St. Vinnies after work. Nothing like going from super expensive clothes to super inexpensive ones. hehe I really wanted to buy a few things but I have too many clothes as it is. I was really looking for some baggy shorts to wear around the house. No luck there. I did pick up 12 magazines full of cross stitch and knitting patterns. There were some funky ass books from the way early 70s. One was supposedly unisex sweaters for both guys and girls, but at least 3 of the designs were lace. Ummmmm I don't think so.

I saw some outfits today that would completely give Jon fits. :OP One lady had green and tan striped pants on with a blue and white checked shirt over a blue t-shirt. I think she got dressed in the dark. I also saw some sweaters made out of the ribbon/ladder type yarn. At first I thought they were ponchos and I wanted to puke. They were bright colors and some had either lace or black velvet trim on them. I think I'll stick with my jeans and t-shirts tyvm.

OK everyone raise your hand

that knew that most power supplies made the last couple years have 24 pins but motherboards made earlier only have 20 pins. I obviously didn't know this. None of the computer shops in town carry the adapters of course. I mean that would be too easy. So once again, I have to put an order in at TigerDirect.com. The damn shipping is almost twice what the adapter costs. I'll have to order a mouse for the kid to make it even halfway worth paying $7 for shipping. grumble

when it rains it pours

I got a message tonight from my stepmother asking me over for a Thanksgiving dinner at their place next weekend. I haven't spoken to my biological father in about 5 years unless you ount the 2 times he called. A couple years ago he called on Christmas Eve asking me out for a family get together. They ignored me for 18 years and when I finally made contact I really tried to get along with them. I really did. I asked them for a place to stay for a couple months to save for an apartment because I couldn't live where I was any more. I lived with someone that was beating the crap out of me. They told me no. I found out a few years later that they let my half brother's girlfriend move in with them because she was living in a bad situation. He wouldn't do for his blood but he let someone else move in. After that I said fuck it. I'm the oldest of his kids. The next oldest got married about 2 years ago. I wasn't invited. A year ago this same half brother had a baby. Again I read about it in the paper. I really want nothing to do with those 3. If the youngest of the kids wants to get together, that is fine. I adore them but I guess it upset them that I didn't visit my father in the hospital after his motercycle accident. I might have visited if I thought he was dying or something. The youngest is having a baby next spring. It would be nice to have something to do with a niece or nephew. The brother I grew up with doesn't have kids. Doubt he ever will. He and his lady are not the parent types. I have one fucked up family. No wonder I'm a total mess.

Into the Abyss

Well, I don't know how much I'll be posting in the near future. I lost my job at the hardware store. For some reason my supervisor decided that I was too slow and wasn't trying. She never gave me a chance to do anything other than jobs that are detailed and take a long time to do. She was told by other people that the one job was very tedious, but I guess he just didn't want to listen. I guess I also trusted the wrong people to talk to at work too. I only complained to a couple people about how my supervisor wasn't giving me a chance to do any of the big jobs in the reorganization of the store. The store manager brought it up. He wouldn't even listen to any of my explanations.

Anyways, suffice it to say I can feel myself slipping into depression here. It always seems that just when things are looking up and I might get a little ahead, my life blows up in my face. I was forced into leaving the job I held for 9 years one month before paying off my car and finally being able to put money away. Here I finally found a job I kinda liked that had benefits again and it is taken away. I'm just so sick of trying. There always seems to be someone there that decides they don't like me and does their level best to get rid of me. I guess the call from my ex was just life's way of warning me that the shit was about to hit the fan again.

Either tonight or tomorrow I'll get the power supply installed and post the pictures I've got waiting on the camera. I just have to wait until I can spend more than 5 minutes without bawling my head off. I just feel so lost right now and like such a failure. I don't think I'll ever get my life straightened around so my son can have a good upbringing. I'm to the point where I almost want to tell my parents to just raise him so I can just go curl up somewhere and hide. I just don't feel like I'm doing any favors for him by forcing him to put up with me. I'm afraid that I'm going to ruin his life like I've ruined mine.

Man I'm lazy

LOL Ok maybe not so much lazy as freakin tired. I had a bit of trouble sleeping last night cause a guy I broke up with 2 1/2 years ago called up last night and left a message asking me to call him back. Ummmmm not on your damn life. I'm not gonna give him the pleasure of responding. I just have no damn clue why he won't leave me alone. He even thinks I'm married. sigh

I managed to stay away from Hobby Lobby today. I bought all the books that I wanted. hehe I realized this morning that it wasn't really my fault that I was in a car accident on Tuesday. Yeah I started to pull out into the intersection, but I never did pull past the curb. The road on the left has a turning lane onto the road I was on but on the right it goes back to two lanes. I was still technically on the side street. When the guy hit the breaks he swerved towards me. There wasn't any real damage done to either vehicle but it shook me up and I was almost late for work.

Oh well, I'm gonna finish watching Orlando Bloom on tv and head to bed. That boy is just too cute. hehe

Man I'm tired

Another long day at work down. One more to go. We only work a couple hours on Friday. I ended up going out to Mom's for pizza and to get the kid, so the power supply hasn't been installed yet.

I went back to Hobby Lobby again today. I picked up 2 more books. I'm officially on a book diet. hehehehe


The Knitters Bible by Claire Crompton


Beautiful Knitting Patternsby Gisela Klopper


They only cost me $23. Not too bad. I'm done though. I need to finish up some projects and use some yarn before I buy anything else. I've got 10 skeins of Hemp Wool blend coming in the next couple weeks. I've got enough yarn to see me through a few sweaters and shawls. Hell, I don't have room for more yarn right now. I don't have anywhere to put my new books yet. hehe

Tuesday update

Well, the power supply has arrived. Have I put it in yet? No. Suprised? You shouldn't be. hehe I'm just pooped today. That and my dang fingers hurt. I've been ripping down tape and messing with labels at work and my fingers are paying the price. A piece of tape under the fingernail can be just as painful as a damn knife. I'll get the power supply installed tomorrow.

I went shopping at Hobby Lobby today during my lunch break. They are having a 50% off sale on their knitting and crochet books. I picked up 3 books for $24.



Design & Knit the Sweater of Your Dreams

by J. Marsha Michler



Hot Knits: 30 Cool, Fun Designs to Knit and Wear

by Melissa Leapman


The Ultimate Book of Knit Socks

I have a bad feeling that I will end up at Hobby Lobby again tomorrow. hehe They have 2 more books that I would really like to have. One is the Knitter's Bible and then a stitch collection. It is just so hard to pass up a 50% off sale.

Oh and btw, I'm not linking to the pictures on the web sites. I stole em and uploaded em to my geocities site. :OP Easier to do than scan the covers cause then I would have to either install the software on this pc or the power supply on my pc. Nah, not happening tonight. I haven't even eaten supper yet. The smell of pizza is makin me drool though. Guess I'm off to slice it up and gobble some down. Later gators.