So much of the time that is how I feel.
I can be happy for short stretches. And I try to spread that happy. Only, it never really feels like anyone notices.
So often I try and make people laugh or smile and I get nothing back at all. Very often I don't get any acknowledgement that I even spoke.
I'm not talking about this blog. I know no one is ever going to comment on here even though there are people that read it.
I'm on tons of other platforms though. Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Ravelry. I might as well be pissing in the wind 95% of the time.
The most reaction I get is when I comment on political posts on FB. I've been known to go back and forth for hours with someone on there. No, I'm not going to change their minds, but it's sure fun making them look like jackasses for a bit.
I dunno what the hell I really expect. No, I know what I expect. I expect nothing. I hope for some sort of sign that someone is listening. A click here or there would be nice.
Mostly I get what I expected though.