Sunday, November 27, 2005


Well I couldn't snag Mom's old camera cause my brother was still at her house when I left. He was the one who bought it for her and I don't wanna piss him off by snaggin it. hehe I figured I had better share some more of my current knitting projects with y'all though.

This is my Celtic Cable scarf. I'm using the Knit Picks Andean Silk that my SP5 partner sent me. The color is Bluebell. I've just started the second skein and it is about 19" long. Once I've got the 3rd skein finished I'll decide if I need to order another one. Hopefully it will stop curling so bad when I get it blocked. The reverse stocking stitch and garter stitch border are rolling in big time. I had to smush it pretty bad when I scanned it to get it to lay flat. hehe

I'm tryin like hell to keep myself away from eBay. In the last 2 weeks I've ordered 2 skeins of Twinkletoes fingering wt wool to make scarves with. One skein is in autumn colors and the other is blue and purples. I also won 2 auctions for AERO knitting needles. I just love those things. I won one auction for 8 sets of dpns and one auction for 5 circs. The seller is so awesome. I paid as soon as she sent me an invoice cause I wasn't sure of the shipping from Canada and I included a note about how much I love AERO needles and hooks. She wrote back that she found a couple more pairs and tossed them in as a bonus. I'm so tickled. I just love the enamel finish on the needles and hooks. I'm always looking for them on eBay but I usually lose out in the end. sigh

Well time to get some mail done and then get my happy ass to bed. It's back to school for the kid and back to work for me tomorrow. blahh

Friday, November 25, 2005

still alive...

but barely. I woke up this morning with a horrible horrible headache and it just will not go away. I think part of it was being pissed off at my brother yesterday. I was really upset that he didn't call me when he was in town at his girlfriend's grandma's for Thanksgiving dinner. Turns out he did know that my folks went to Michigan and he thought my son and I went along with. I guess I'll just have to wait to kill him. hehe

I finished the blue and fisherman mosaic hat today. I prolly would have had it done last night if I hadn't of had to rip it back so many damn times last night. I didn't have any stitch markers with me and I kept messing up the first row of the mosaic.

Here is a scan of the green hat too. The two different sizes look so different. I'm assuming that the blue hat, which is the small size, is supposed to be longer so it can be rolled up. The green/large hat fits my big ole fat head pretty good. hehe

I may get to take pics once in awhile now. My pain in the butt parents bought themselves another digital camera. They wanted to get a photo printer and it only cost another $70 for the camera too. It is a very nice camera. I would so love to snitch it from them. hehehe Mom has said I can borrow the old camera. Man I so want to get a good camera.

Well, time to get a shower and lay down. It is going to be so wonderful to sleep in my own bed tonight.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Happy Turkey Day!!

I hope all of y'all are having yourselves a wonderful Thanksgiving.

Make sure that you give special thanks for your family and friends. Also say a special prayer for our brothers and sisters in arms this holiday season.

I'm off to watch a movie and try to restrain myself from making nasty phone calls. hehehehe

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Oh the agony

Did you know that using a palm sander for 6 hours a day can cause severe pain? My hands and arms are so sore I could scream. I know on the drive home from work people must have thought I was insane. I was driving one handed while flexing my other arm and hand. It sort of looked like I was trying to vogue. hehehe

Well, here is a crappy pic of the hat I made for my brother for Christmas. It's the Make It Mosaic Hat from the Nov 2005 issue of Creative Knitting. I used Lion Brand Wool-Ease in Forest Green Heather and Fisherman. I had it mostly done in 2 days. I was being a moron and didn't follow directions and had to rip out quite a bit. I'm going to do the smaller version in Blue Mist and Fisherman for my bro's girlfriend. I was going to do a burgundy color but Joanne's only had one skein and I needed 2 at least. I'm also going to see if I can figure out how to make a scarf to match.

Well, I'm off to pack up some clothes and lots of yarn. Nick and I are going to go stay the night at my folk's house. They are visiting my great aunt in Michigan and I usually house sit while they are gone. They don't really need a housesitter now that they have moved, but they have cable and a big screen tv. hehehe I'm going to sit my big ole butt on a nice soft recliner and knit away my Thanksgiving. I'm thinking I'll have pizza for dinner tomorrow. We are going to have the big turkey dinner on Sunday.

Happy turkey day y'all.

Sunday, November 20, 2005


Well, I finally hooked my piece of shit camera up tonight. I had every intention of uploading the pictures of the shawl and of the kid. You can barely tell there is a shawl or anything else in the pics. I just give up with that damn thing. After Christmas I'll save up and get myself a halfway decent camera. I'm pretty sure the folks will be taking their camera to Michigan with them tomorrow, so it will be at least a week before I can get ahold of it.

I went to get myself a tracphone for emergencies tonight. I'll be doing lots of highway driving back and forth to the new job. I'm a bit nervous about driving in the dark on potentially icy roads when the houses are few and far between. I haven't put a car in the ditch in over 5 years, but I don't want to get stuck in a snow bank with the kid in the truck. I was at the checkout when I realized I didn't have my wallet on me. hehehe I only had $15 in my pocket. I had to pick up my Pepsi and pizza though. Got the kid some chicken nuggets and he actually ate the damn things. It's been months since he has actually eaten em.

Maybe tomorrow I'll scan my latest WIPS. I've got a hat I'm working on for my brother. I have to rip it back some cause boy howdy is it too big. hehe I've got a baby blue scarf in the works for myself too along with the blue and boa scarf. I've got to add on to the green hat that I made for Nick. My mom has decided that it doesn't cover his ears enough. I'm going to add on some garter stitch to the bottom to create more to fold back. I was going to do that before I sewed it up but silly me, I thought it was already big enough. :OP

Tuesday, November 15, 2005


I'm back. New power supply and double the memory I had before. I think I still have a fan that needs to be replaced. Still, the pc is running great. I'm too pooped to get pics off my camera tonight. I'll try tomorrow after work. Oh btw, I was no where near the tornados that hit the other day here in Iowa. It was windy here but nothing dangerous. Now we are dealing with snow!!! hehehe Can't wait to play with my new snowblower.

Saturday, November 12, 2005


I'm gonna be scarce for a bit. I guess my dad has flipped his damn lid. I just got an e-mail from my mom that if I don't bring my son's pc (which they bought) over to their house tomorrow the shit is going to hit the fan. In the mood I'm in right now I would throw the damn computer at my dad if he was here right now. The man needs medication. Lots of it. Hell as stupid as he is he would probably overdose on it. *BEG*

Can ya tell that I was already in a shitty mood? Last week my stepmom called and invited me to dinner this weekend. Well I put it off until today to call and tell her no. Actually I kind of blanked on it and kept forgetting to call. I called the house today and guess who picked up the phone. My biological dad. He is as big an asshole as the one my mom is married to now. Just talking to him pissed me off and I told him off and hung up on him. I'm debating on if I'm going to call and try to talk to my stepmom. I don't really like her much either.

I did cast on for the acrylic wonder scarf. I can't knit with the plush and boa at the same time. The boa gets totally hidden. Basically, I'm going to do stripes of the boa every once in awhile. I ordered the last part I need to fix my pc and hopefully I'll have it by Tuesday or Wednesday. Didn't work on the knitting bag at all today. My head hurts to much to think about listening to the sewing machine going. I woke up with a nasty headache and it has yet to go away. At least my back is feeling better finally.

Well, I'm gonna sign off and go to bed. I'm gonna burn all my shit off the computer in the morning and clear it all off here. Nothing incriminating on here. My life is too damn boring for that. :OP I just hate the idea of my dad going through my things. I know he was in my room on Thursday. I wish like hell I had someone around here that could babysit for me regularly so I didn't have to rely on the asshole to get my son on the bus in the morning. I would be just peachy about never seeing either of my so called fathers again. Men are just fucking assholes. The kid is a pain in the ass but he doesn't mean to be. Is just a fact of his gender and his age. hehe All 6 year olds are pains and doubly so when they are boys. :OP He is just lucky I love him or he would be dead by now. J/K Don't no one go calling DHS on me. I don't even spank the brat.

Friday, November 11, 2005


Boy was I scratchin my head earlier. After work, I saw a guy walking that I've seen a few times before. Before he was always sitting, so what I saw was a tad unusual. At first I thought he had shorts on and had his jacket tied around his waist. It is still pretty nice around here and lots of people are still wearing shorts. It took me a good 30 seconds to realize he was wearing a kilt. Other than at weddings or on tv, I've never seen a guy wearing a kilt. This guy was coming out of his workplace. He works in a warehouse. I sure as heck hope he wasn't being too traditional. hehehehe It just struck me as odd to see a man wearing a kilt to work in buttcrack Iowa. Yes, I'm sure it was a kilt and not a skirt. He had all the regalia that goes with a kilt on it. Yes I do know of at least one guy that goes to work in a skirt, but it's because he is not traditional at all. When he went to his work's Christmas party dressed fully as a woman, he really freaked everyone out. hehe He doesn't wear makeup to work or falsies.

I got a bit creative last night. I've got a few pairs of jeans that have too many holes in them to wear or the whole is in a bad spot. I have no clue at all why the area around the left back pocket wears out in my jeans. Anyways, I cut the legs off of one pair and trimmed them a bit and opened them up flat. Then I cut a leg off of another pair and cut two long strips from it and sewed them in between the other legs the long way. I sewed up the bottom and holy crap, I'm halfway to making a knitting bag. hehehe I took another long strip and made a tube out of it and did some decorative stitches on it and it is going to become the strap. This weekend, I'm going to measure what I have and cut out the lining from the sheep fabric that I bought ions ago. I really had fun playing with the sewing machine. It can do all sorts of fancy stitches and I'm sure the more I mess with it, the more I'll discover.

I've also cast on for a cabled scarf. It is using a Celtic cable that I found in a book I just got. I don't think I'll have enough yarn to make a scarf long enough. I think I'll just make it as long as I can and then order enough yarn from KnitPicks to make it the right length. I may just end up letting the messed up part at the beginning bug the shit out of me and rip the whole thing out. hehehe I used the wrong cable cross over so there are purl stitches on the cable instead of the regular knit stitches. I've got another scarf idea in my head. I've got a scarf that I started using Red Heart Plush in Navy. Yeah, I know it is acrylic but it is nice and soft. What I started was in the afghan stitch but lord only knows what size hook I was using or where it may be now. I'm going to rip it out and start over. I did the unthinkable and bought a skein of Bernat Boa in Parrot. hehehehe This is the only skein of novelty yarn I've actually bought. I'm going to use it as an accent with the Plush. They didn't have a darker blue mix, so I got the dark purple mix. This is the yarn snobs nightmare. lol I think it will be kinda cool though.

Well my back is starting to hurt, so I'm gonna go watch a movie in my recliner. I may end up falling asleep though. hehehe I got up at 4:30 this morning. Dumb idea. hehe

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

The 80s are alive...

and well in the Midwest. I thought mall hair was a thing of the past. Unfortunately it isn't. Over the last few days I've seen at least 3 women that look like they are stuck in a Whitesnake video. The teasing and highlights are insane. I'm even seeing women wearing bright blue eyeshadow. OMG!!! Talk about yuck. Yesterday while I was out shopping I saw two women that were together and had the exact same haircut. Short and spikey with the exact same highlights. Even some of the clothes I've seen lately have been so 80s. We are talking super tight pants with the black leather belt with silver studs on it.

I'm having trouble with today's fashions too. Why the hell do perfectly normal sized women insist on wearing hip hugger jeans??? They have to be worn so damn tight in order to keep them up that even thin women end up having fat hanging over them. I was standing behind this one chick that had her love handles hanging over her pants, the crack of her ass showing and when she turned around her stomach was hanging over the waistband too. I can't even imagine trying to move while wearing these jeans. The moment you bend over your crack is there for the world to see. God forbid you actually sit down. It would be different if they wore longer shirts but nooooo they wear short shirts that don't hardly come to their belly buttons. About a month ago I saw a woman putting her kid into his car seat and literally 2/3 of her ass was hangin out there for the whole parking lot to see. And let me tell you, this was no small ass either. hehehehe

I went to the doctor this afternoon. I've been having lots of pain in my lower back on the left side. I didn't do anything to cause it to hurt. Hell I don't have very much feeling in that side of my body to begin with. For the last 5 days I've been having sharp pains when I turn to the left. I was worried that my kidney might have been infected. The doc says my back is having spasms. Because of all the meds I'm on he wouldn't even give me anything for it. He told me to take some Tylenol. Ummmmm yeah right. That crap doesn't do anything for me at all. Well if I take like 8 of them they start to help. I'm going to have to stay off the computer as much as possible. I guess I'll get some more knitting done this way. hehe

Tuesday, November 08, 2005


The more fancy clothes I see the more I love my jeans and t-shirts. hehehe I have no clue why someone would want to spend over $150 for an outfit. I think my whole outfit I wore today cost about $60. That includes my shoes and glasses. hehehe

I was working away today when I got a bit of a start. First I see a fireman and a paramedic go by and then I see 3 more paramedics. Next thing I know 3 more came along with a stretcher. I guess one of the ladies in our department was having trouble breathing. This wasn't long before it was time to go, so I don't know if she is alright. I'm hoping it was an asthma attack and not a heart attack. Yeah I know asthma attacks can be nasty and even deadly. My son has asthma that is triggered by allergies. There are times when I think he is going to cough his poor head off his shoulders or his head is going to explode. He turns bright red and starts crying. He has the sort where he can't get the air out of his lungs. It doesn't scare him as much as it used to. He knows that his inhaler will help.

Monday, November 07, 2005


Was back at the department store warehouse handing clothes up. I gotta tell you, there are people out there with too damn much money and they need to send me some. Just in suits alone, I hung up $63,000 worth of clothes. For the price of one of these suits, I would want at least 4 if not 5 suits. I also was hanging up sweaters that ran for over $150. Yeah they were cashmere but damn. I want to find the woman that will buy the 24" waist jeans that ran almost $70 and ram a few cheeseburgers down her throat. I think I might steal her purse too cause she has too much money in the damn thing. hehehe

I went to St. Vinnies after work. Nothing like going from super expensive clothes to super inexpensive ones. hehe I really wanted to buy a few things but I have too many clothes as it is. I was really looking for some baggy shorts to wear around the house. No luck there. I did pick up 12 magazines full of cross stitch and knitting patterns. There were some funky ass books from the way early 70s. One was supposedly unisex sweaters for both guys and girls, but at least 3 of the designs were lace. Ummmmm I don't think so.

I saw some outfits today that would completely give Jon fits. :OP One lady had green and tan striped pants on with a blue and white checked shirt over a blue t-shirt. I think she got dressed in the dark. I also saw some sweaters made out of the ribbon/ladder type yarn. At first I thought they were ponchos and I wanted to puke. They were bright colors and some had either lace or black velvet trim on them. I think I'll stick with my jeans and t-shirts tyvm.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

OK everyone raise your hand

that knew that most power supplies made the last couple years have 24 pins but motherboards made earlier only have 20 pins. I obviously didn't know this. None of the computer shops in town carry the adapters of course. I mean that would be too easy. So once again, I have to put an order in at The damn shipping is almost twice what the adapter costs. I'll have to order a mouse for the kid to make it even halfway worth paying $7 for shipping. grumble

Saturday, November 05, 2005

when it rains it pours

I got a message tonight from my stepmother asking me over for a Thanksgiving dinner at their place next weekend. I haven't spoken to my biological father in about 5 years unless you ount the 2 times he called. A couple years ago he called on Christmas Eve asking me out for a family get together. They ignored me for 18 years and when I finally made contact I really tried to get along with them. I really did. I asked them for a place to stay for a couple months to save for an apartment because I couldn't live where I was any more. I lived with someone that was beating the crap out of me. They told me no. I found out a few years later that they let my half brother's girlfriend move in with them because she was living in a bad situation. He wouldn't do for his blood but he let someone else move in. After that I said fuck it. I'm the oldest of his kids. The next oldest got married about 2 years ago. I wasn't invited. A year ago this same half brother had a baby. Again I read about it in the paper. I really want nothing to do with those 3. If the youngest of the kids wants to get together, that is fine. I adore them but I guess it upset them that I didn't visit my father in the hospital after his motercycle accident. I might have visited if I thought he was dying or something. The youngest is having a baby next spring. It would be nice to have something to do with a niece or nephew. The brother I grew up with doesn't have kids. Doubt he ever will. He and his lady are not the parent types. I have one fucked up family. No wonder I'm a total mess.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Into the Abyss

Well, I don't know how much I'll be posting in the near future. I lost my job at the hardware store. For some reason my supervisor decided that I was too slow and wasn't trying. She never gave me a chance to do anything other than jobs that are detailed and take a long time to do. She was told by other people that the one job was very tedious, but I guess he just didn't want to listen. I guess I also trusted the wrong people to talk to at work too. I only complained to a couple people about how my supervisor wasn't giving me a chance to do any of the big jobs in the reorganization of the store. The store manager brought it up. He wouldn't even listen to any of my explanations.

Anyways, suffice it to say I can feel myself slipping into depression here. It always seems that just when things are looking up and I might get a little ahead, my life blows up in my face. I was forced into leaving the job I held for 9 years one month before paying off my car and finally being able to put money away. Here I finally found a job I kinda liked that had benefits again and it is taken away. I'm just so sick of trying. There always seems to be someone there that decides they don't like me and does their level best to get rid of me. I guess the call from my ex was just life's way of warning me that the shit was about to hit the fan again.

Either tonight or tomorrow I'll get the power supply installed and post the pictures I've got waiting on the camera. I just have to wait until I can spend more than 5 minutes without bawling my head off. I just feel so lost right now and like such a failure. I don't think I'll ever get my life straightened around so my son can have a good upbringing. I'm to the point where I almost want to tell my parents to just raise him so I can just go curl up somewhere and hide. I just don't feel like I'm doing any favors for him by forcing him to put up with me. I'm afraid that I'm going to ruin his life like I've ruined mine.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Man I'm lazy

LOL Ok maybe not so much lazy as freakin tired. I had a bit of trouble sleeping last night cause a guy I broke up with 2 1/2 years ago called up last night and left a message asking me to call him back. Ummmmm not on your damn life. I'm not gonna give him the pleasure of responding. I just have no damn clue why he won't leave me alone. He even thinks I'm married. sigh

I managed to stay away from Hobby Lobby today. I bought all the books that I wanted. hehe I realized this morning that it wasn't really my fault that I was in a car accident on Tuesday. Yeah I started to pull out into the intersection, but I never did pull past the curb. The road on the left has a turning lane onto the road I was on but on the right it goes back to two lanes. I was still technically on the side street. When the guy hit the breaks he swerved towards me. There wasn't any real damage done to either vehicle but it shook me up and I was almost late for work.

Oh well, I'm gonna finish watching Orlando Bloom on tv and head to bed. That boy is just too cute. hehe

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Man I'm tired

Another long day at work down. One more to go. We only work a couple hours on Friday. I ended up going out to Mom's for pizza and to get the kid, so the power supply hasn't been installed yet.

I went back to Hobby Lobby again today. I picked up 2 more books. I'm officially on a book diet. hehehehe

The Knitters Bible
by Claire Crompton

Beautiful Knitting Patterns
by Gisela Klopper

They only cost me $23. Not too bad. I'm done though. I need to finish up some projects and use some yarn before I buy anything else. I've got 10 skeins of Hemp Wool blend coming in the next couple weeks. I've got enough yarn to see me through a few sweaters and shawls. Hell, I don't have room for more yarn right now. I don't have anywhere to put my new books yet. hehe

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Tuesday update

Well, the power supply has arrived. Have I put it in yet? No. Suprised? You shouldn't be. hehe I'm just pooped today. That and my dang fingers hurt. I've been ripping down tape and messing with labels at work and my fingers are paying the price. A piece of tape under the fingernail can be just as painful as a damn knife. I'll get the power supply installed tomorrow.

I went shopping at Hobby Lobby today during my lunch break. They are having a 50% off sale on their knitting and crochet books. I picked up 3 books for $24.

Design & Knit the Sweater of Your Dreams
by Melissa Leapman

The Ultimate Book of Knit Socks

I have a bad feeling that I will end up at Hobby Lobby again tomorrow. hehe They have 2 more books that I would really like to have. One is the Knitter's Bible and then a stitch collection. It is just so hard to pass up a 50% off sale.

Oh and btw, I'm not linking to the pictures on the web sites. I stole em and uploaded em to my geocities site. :OP Easier to do than scan the covers cause then I would have to either install the software on this pc or the power supply on my pc. Nah, not happening tonight. I haven't even eaten supper yet. The smell of pizza is makin me drool though. Guess I'm off to slice it up and gobble some down. Later gators.