Divide

Divide

by Disturbed


Go!

I want to tear a big hole in what is to be,
To end all this infatuation with unity,
I'm checking my salvation alone again,
I never needed to be one of you anyway
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My own individuality is so unique,
I'm one impressive motherfucker
Now, wouldn't you say

(Break apart and)

Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me

I am a little more provocative then you might need,
It's your shock and then your horror on which I feed
So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean,
If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be
Don't wanna be another player losing in this game
I'm trying to impress upon you
We're not the same
My psychotic mentality is so unique
I'm one aggressive motherfucker
Now, wouldn't you say

(Break apart and)

Divide Divide Divide Divide
You might say that I'm the last man standing now,
Though you'll try, you'll never find a way to break me
You might say that I'm sick of being lost in the crowd,
I hear the sirens but they're never gonna take me

(They won't take me)

Well fuck it all!

Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and divide)
Break Break Break Break
(Break apart and...)

Divide Divide Divide Divide
Divide Divide, break apart and divide

Divide Divide Divide Divide
Divide Divide, break apart and

Divide Divide Divide Divide
Divide Divide, break apart and divide

Divide Divide Divide Divide
Divide Divide Divide Divide





I love this song. It's off Indestructible which is an awesome CD. My favorite part is: I am a little more provocative then you might need, It's your shock and then your horror on which I feed So can you tell me what exactly does freedom mean, If I'm not free to be as twisted as I wanna be That is so how I used to be before the brat

yeah

So yeah I've been lost in my world of fanfiction again. Still. I just love Snape. I've found quite a few sexy Snape stories lately and sigh, I just can't help myself.

I've been doing only a little bit of knitting. My health hasn't been the greatest lately. I just haven't felt much of an urge.

I added a couple widgets on the left <~~~. Now y'all can IM me when I'm online even if you don't have Yahoo Messenger.

Ok, I'm off to get the boogerchild into bed. Then off to finish the latest story. :)

meme time

Stole this one from Colleen. I"m a little dissapointed that they didn't include some country in the list. There were quite a few songs of that time that I liked. I have to admit to giggling at Colleen's list and being amazed at how many songs she hates that I absolutely love. hehe

The rules:
A.) Go to Music Outfitters
B.) Enter the year you graduated from high school in the search function and get the list of 100 most popular songs of that year
C.) Bold the songs you like, strike through the ones you hate and underline your favorite. Do nothing to the ones you don’t remember (or don’t care about)

1. Hold On, Wilson Phillips
2. It Must Have Been Love, Roxette
3. Nothing Compares 2 U, Sinead O'Connor
4. Poison, Bell Biv Devoe
5. Vogue, Madonna
6. Vision Of Love, Mariah Carey
7. Another Day In Paradise, Phil Collins
8. Hold On, En Vogue
9. Cradle Of Love, Billy Idol
10. Blaze Of Glory, Jon Bon Jovi
11. Do Me!, Bell Biv Devoe
12. How Am I Supposed To Live Without You, Michael Bolton
13. Pump Up The Jam, Technotronic
14. Opposites Attract, Paula Abdul
15. Escapade, Janet Jackson
16. All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You, Heart
17. Close To You, Maxi Priest
18. Black Velvet, Alannah Myles
19. Release Me, Wilson Phillips
20. Don't Know Much, Linda Ronstadt and Aaron Neville
21. All Around The World, Lisa Stansfield
22. l Wanna Be Rich, Calloway
23. I Remember You, Skid Row
24. Rub You The Right Way, Johnny Gill
25. She Ain't Worth It, Glenn Medeiros Featuring Bobby Brown
26. If Wishes Came True, Sweet Sensation
27. The Power, Snap
28. (Can't Live Without Your) Love and Affection, Nelson
29. Love Will Lead You Back, Taylor Dayne
30. Don't Wanna Fall In Love, Jane Child
31. Two To Make It Right, Seduction
32. Sending All My Love, Linear
33. Unskinny Bop, Poison
34. Step By Step, New Kids On The Block
35. Dangerous, Roxette
36. We Didn't Start The Fire, Billy Joel
37. I Don't Have The Heart, James Ingram
38. Downtown Train, Rod Stewart
39. Rhythm Nation, Janet Jackson
40. I'll Be Your Everything, Tommy Page
41. Roam, B-52's
42. Everything, Jody Watley
43. Back To Life, Soul II Soul
44. Here and Now, Luther Vandross
45. Alright, Janet Jackson
46. Ice Ice Baby, Vanilla Ice
47. Blame It On The Rain, Milli Vanilli
48. Have You Seen Her, M.C. Hammer
49. With Every Beat Of My Heart, Taylor Dayne
50. Come Back To Me, Janet Jackson
51. No More Lies, Michel'le
52. Praying For Time, George Michael
53. How Can We Be Lovers, Michael Bolton
54. Do You Remember, Phil Collins
55. Ready Or Not, After 7
56. U Can't Touch This, M.C. Hammer
57. I Wish It Would Rain Down, Phil Collins
58. Just Between You and Me, Lou Gramm
59. Something Happened On The Way To Heaven, Phil Collins
60. Black Cat, Janet Jackson
61. Can't Stop, After 7
62. Janie's Got A Gun, Aerosmith
63. The Humpty Dance, Digital Underground
64. I'll Be Your Shelter, Taylor Dayne
65. Free Fallin', Tom Petty
66. Giving You The Benefit, Pebbles
67. Enjoy The Silence, Depeche Mode
68. Love Song, Tesla
69. Price Of Love, Bad English
70. Girls Nite Out, Tyler Collins
71. King Of Wishful Thinking, Go West
72. What Kind Of Man Would I Be?, Chicago
73. Get Up! (Before The Night Is Over), Technotroic
74. Here We Are, Gloria Estefan
75. Epic, Faith No More
76. Love Takes Time, Mariah Carey
77. Just Like Jesse James, Cher
78. Love Shack, B-52's
79. All Or Nothing, Milli Vanilli
80. Romeo, Dino
81. Everybody Everybody, Black Box
82. I Go To Extremes, Billy Joel
83. Whip Appeal, Babyface
84. Oh Girl, Paul Young
85. C'mon and Get My Love, D-Mob With Cathy Dennis
85. (It's Just) The Way That You Love Me, Paula Abdul
87. We Can't Go Wrong, Cover Girls
88. When I'm Back On My Feet Again, Michael Bolton
89. Make You Sweat, Keith Sweat
90. This One's For The Children, New Kids On The Block
91. What It Takes, Aerosmith
92. Forever, Kiss
93. Jerk Out, Time
94. Just A Friend, Biz Markie
95. Whole Wide World, A'me Lorain
96. Without You, Motley Crue
97. Swing The Mood, Jive Bunny and The Mastermixers
98. Thieves In The Temple, Prince
99. Mentirosa, Mellow Man Ace
100. Tic-Tac-Toe, Kyper

sigh

Color me disappointed.

I know I've blogged about the fiber guild that I meet with on the last Wednesday of the month. Well due to illness and my just plain forgetting, it's been a few months since I've been able to go. Well, today just so happens to be the last Wednesday of the month.

I got the kid dressed and in the car. We drove the 15 miles or so downtown. And no one was there. The doors were locked and the lights were off. *sigh*

So, I decided to run to the nearest bank for some cash. I always take the kid for some fries afterwards. Well it wasn't too far out of the way, so I drove back past the community center and the lights were on. Unfortunately, the doors were still locked. *grumble*

I just said screw it and took the kid to McDonald's and got him a happy mean. And I gotta admit, the fries I got were the best fries I've had in ages. I wasted some gas, but at least I ended up with some good fries. lol

Been working on the Galveston shawl again. I haven't gotten very far though. heh I should have gotten a few inches done tonight but I'm going to write instead. I've decided to write my own Harry Potter fan fiction story. It's a story that has been knocking around in my head for a few months now. I even dream about it. I'm on the third chapter and so far the two people that have read what I've got, have liked it. I want to get at least halfway through the story before I ask for some betas and publish it. I just want to make sure that I actually finish the darn thing. hehe

been a long time

This last week or so was very busy for me and the kid. Two weeks ago, my folks decided that I needed to take the kid on vacation. Ummmmm ok. They suggested a water park in Rockford, Il or the Mall of America. I have heard nasty things about that water park and well that isn't really my speed.

So, last Monday, the kid and I took off for Minneapolis. We took dad's van because he has a dvd player and well I need to update my plates. heh We made real good time and got to the mall about 11am. I swear I've never spent so much time driving in circles though. There was lots of construction on 35N. Nick spent the afternoon riding on the rides. He only freaked out once and that was because his bumper car wasn't working right. He ended up getting a tummy ache after riding on the Fairly Odd Coaster.

It was a long drive back to the hotel in Owtanna. Big mistake booking a hotel so far away. Oh well. The ride back into Minneapolis took forever. A semi tipped over on a frontage road and spilled corn all over the interstate. It took about a half hour to go about 5 miles. We had to get back into town though because I wanted to meet Bubbo and Joy!! Monday was Joy's last chance to meet up with the Minneapolis knitters because she is moving to NYC like tomorrow. heh I recognized Heather right off even though she went from pink hair to purple. :) She was so totally sweet. Irene and Betsy were cool too. I'm not sure if they are on Ravelry or have blogs. oops

We sat and chatted for a while. They were all so completely funny and super sweet. I could have stayed all night but Nick was getting antsy. He kept asking to go outside but ummm not gonna happen in Minneapolis even if it was uptown and not downtown. I got a bit of a shock when I went to leave. Bubbo grabbed my ass. hehe I totally should have given her a hug. I'm hoping that in the spring the kid and I can make another trip up to the mall and I intend to correct that.

I had to call my dad to figure out how in the heck to turn the headlights on on his van. I think he was ready to reach through the phone and smack me. hehe It was a long ride back to the hotel and we picked up McDonald's for supper. We fell asleep watching Transformers. Unfortunately, the kid woke me up a couple hours later. He ended up puking his guts out in the bathroom. He fell asleep while I was cleaning up and slept all night. He woke up just fine and dandy but boy was I sore. hehe

We drove back up to the mall Tuesday morning and went to the aquarium. We actually went through twice with a break to walk all 4 levels of the mall. Well we really didn't walk around on the first floor cause we did that on Monday. I saw tons of shops that I would love to visit when I actually have money to spend. All in all, I bought a puzzle and some postcards. I should scan them and share em with y'all. The best part of the aquarium was getting to pet the stingrays and the baby sharks. Nick totally chickened out and wouldn't touch them. After that we made the long trek home. It sucked having to listen to the dvd player instead of my mp3 player. (It hid itself in the van and I couldn't find it for the ride home) We didn't get home until 8pm because we stayed at my folk's house for awhile after getting back.

Nick went back to school on Thursday and it was so nice. hehe He did go to vacation bible school for a week, but that was only 3 hours a day. So not the same. I took Saturday and Sunday off from work because my folks were out of town. I was originally going to go with them to Chicago for my cousin's wedding. It's a good thing we stayed home though. When they got there, they found out that the didn't have a hotel reservation like they though. That will teach them to go to Chicago on Stitches weekend. hehe Y'all stole my folk's room dang it. They ended up driving home after the wedding. I think they got home at like 3am. Yuck!!

Nick and I had a better Saturday though. We went to a local nature preserve with Big Brothers/ Big Sisters. It was part of Take A Kid Outside. It's a fairly local program designed to get kids outside doing something productive. A park naturist gave a talk about the geology of Iowa and the local plant life. They primarily focused on the prairie and the push to convert more land into prairie land. After a quick lunch we got to put that into action. The park had torn down a house on their land and we helped plant prairie grass and other prairie plants on the hill where the house was in order to help stop erosion. Out of 80 plants, the kid and I planted 9 plants. Not too shabby when there weren't that many of us there. After getting cleaned up, we went on a little hike to see a prairie that was planted a year ago and to play in a stream. By the time we climbed back up to the welcome center, I was ready for a nap. hehe Thankfully, it was time to climb on the bus back to town. I treated the kid to an ice cream cone as a reward for helping out.

Not a lot of knitting going on around here. I've got a little over one side left to do on the edge for the never ending purple shawl of death. I'm trying to finish it. I swear!! hehe

nuffin

Shamelessly stolen from AmpuTeeHee.

You Are Pink!

Tough. Sexy. Tough. Soulful. Tough. Guys are both attracted and scared of you. "I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes"

Who's Your Inner Rock Chick?

Nothing much interesting going on here. Just been working and hanging out with the kid. I'm still spending most of my time reading fanfiction. I'm almost done with my favorites author's offerings. Then maybe I'll get my ass knitting a bit more. shrugs

I have been feeling a lot better since I decided not to move. A lot less stress on me. My folks have surprised me buy not even mentioning my moving in the last couple of weeks. I thought for sure that my dad would freak at least.

Ok, time to get my butt in gear. I need to get ready for another weekend of the usual grind. wheeeee!! lol

sheesh

I was under the impression that, in Iowa, we actually grew our young people with some common sense. I mean seriously, I hear less rotten stuff about the young people around here than I do other places. (Ok so I live in a little bitty town whatev.)

Yesterday morning, I saw something that just blew me away. I've seen videos of this sort of crap on YouTube and on various tv shows, but come on why do people do this shit??

Ok, here is the scene: It was 5:35 am on US 20 near Peosta. I was just getting onto the highway going west when I saw 2 motorcycles coming east. I look to my left to see if I would need to merge into traffic. I look forward and see that one motorcycle has pulled again. Again I look to the left and then back forwards. I see that the guy on the first motorcycle is now on his knees on the seat.

Ummmmmmmm!!!!!

They are now to my left and I glance ahead again. When I look back over my shoulder, I see that the guy on the first bike is now upright on the seat!!! Because of the shear insanity of the whole thing, I can't tell you if the dipshit was standing on the seat or if he was doing a head stand. All I know is that his body was totally upright.

I had to look forward again to make sure I wasn't going off the dang road. heh When I looked back again, The first guy was now over a little rise and I couldn't see him anymore. I swear I felt like I was in a dang dream though. I asked on of the other gals that comes from farther east and the dipshit driver survived his little stunt. She didn't see his battered body on the other side of the overpass. heh

Looking back, I think the man on the second bike probably had a video camera on him. I'm sure that the video is up on YouTube today. hehe I'm just sorry that I have a really slow connection and I can't watch it. I've come to the conclusion that little Mr. Nick will not be allowed to have a motorcycle. EVER!!!!!

Dang

For the first time in like forever, I actually went to a public pool and actually got into the water. o_0

I did wear my swimsuit. But ummmm it is at least 6 years old and the elastic totally rotted out but I didn't have time to go buy a new one. So I wore a t-shirt and shorts over top. I was worried that they wouldn't let me in the pool with it on. heh Nick had a total blast. So, tomorrow I'm going to go see if I can't find a swimsuit that actually fits. I swear I was afraid that by the time I got out of the pool that the top would actually be UNDER my boobs. I so need something with a better built in bra. Hell, I have some swimsuit material somewhere in the garage. I'm half tempted to find a bra that fits and build a swimsuit around it. heh

And why did I brave the whole public pool drama? One of my mom's oldest and dearest friends called me up out of the blue this morning and asked me to meet her there. She works with kids and has been trying to find activities and stuff for Nick to do. Mom has filled her head with her worries about the kid. *sigh* But it was real fun.

motherhood

sigh

My son has a really nice bike that I bought him last spring. I've refused to put training wheels on it because they really don't help. He had them on his last bike and I found him riding it leaned all the way to the side so the training wheel was holding him up rather than trying to balance.

Learning how to ride the latest bike was put off after he broke his arm last July. My father has decided it is now time for him to learn.

bangs head on desk

I am not a happy camper. I am not strong enough or fast enough to help him learn. He can't seem to get the idea that HE needs to balance himself and I'm not supposed to be holding him up. I have to push him to start because he can't get the peddles going. The moment he starts to loose balance, he stops the bike. Half the time when I get him going, I realize he isn't even peddling. whimper

I have no clue how to help him with this. He spends the whole time whining that he can't do it. Then he squeals and whines when he looses his balance.

I've already warned him that we are going out again tomorrow. I'm dreading it though. It's times like this that I finally regret not having a guy around. It would be so nice to have someone to make do the hard stuff. lol

Take a bow

Rihanna - Take A Bow

How bout a round of applause?
Standin ovation...
Ooooh
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standin' outside my house
Tryin' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
(Please)
Just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
(You better hurry up)
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."
This just looks like a re-run
(Please)
What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

ohhhhhh And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin' me believe
That you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech
oh...

How bout a round of applause?{laugh}
Standin' ovation.......

But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
Now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertaining' eyeahhhhh
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now...

Another song I love. I'd play it for a certain someone, but he wouldn't get it. heh He don't mean no harm though really. He just makes me wistful.

I guess until I find my voice again, y'all are gonna have to put up with my musically eclectic tastes. I really need to add this one to my mp3 player though. :) It's mostly Disturbed and Korn at the moment. There is some Linkin Park and Evenesance thrown in too. Not to mention a couple country songs. :) I have resisted the urge to add in any Garth Brooks or Vince Gill yet though. heh I wish I could figure out the folder thing on my mp3 player so I could switch moods but alas it doesn't want to work for me. *shrugs*

get psycho

Meaning of Life



Ow
Get psycho, I wanna get pscyho
Get psycho, I want I want I want I want
I wanna get psycho
Run you little bitch
I want your power glowing, juicy flowing, red hot
Meaning of life
It's not enough to have a little taste
I want the whole damn thing
And now can you dig it
Need to get psycho
Wanna hear you say it
Say you want it, need it
Don't wanna wait until we finish the show
It's not enough, you hunger for more
You're one twisted little fuck
And now you wanna get psycho with me


Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in
Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in
Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in
Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in


Get psycho, I wanna get pscyho
Get psycho, I want I want I want I want
I wanna get psycho
Scratch my itch
Give me your power glowing , juicy flowing, red hot
Meaning of life
It's not enough to have a little piece
I want the whole damn thing
And now can you dig it
Need to get psycho
I want to hear you scream
Tell me to take you, scare you, fuck you
After we finish the show
It's not enough
You listening whore
You're one twisted little fuck
And you want to get psycho with me


Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in
Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in
Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in
Give in, Give in, Decide, Give in


I can feel the blood flowing through my veins spilling on my soul
And now the hunger's getting bigger
Come a little closer now pretentious whore and pull my trigger
Free the violence that is building in me
I say now end of the ride murder suicide is how I've been feeling lately
Come a little closer now pretentious whore,
I'm reeling with a feeling that I can't ignore
Come a little closer now pretentious whore,
I'm reeling with a feeling that I can't ignore
Come a little closer now pretentious whore,
I'm reeling with a feeling that I can't ignore
And the need to get psycho
Is not a question to me


Get get get get
Get psycho
Get get get
I wanna get psycho
Get get get get
Get psycho
Get get get
I want I want I wanna
Get psycho(psycho)
Get get get
I wanna get psycho(psycho)
Get get get get
Get psycho(psycho)
Get get get
I wanna get psycho
want I want I want I wanna

I so love this song. I like to pretend he is singing about how he wants to get me (psycho). hehe Gotta love that man's voice. mmmmmm

Where I've been

Hmmm, So I should probably explain my absence from the blog. There are lots of reasons really. A major one is that I've been reading a lot. I started out over at Mugglenet.com. I found some stories by Vindictus Viridian. Lots of great Snape fanfiction in his/her works. I'm not real sure on VV's gender. lol


Then I wandered over to fanfiction.net when someone mentioned the Jennifer Craw stories. Can we say total addiction? She has written like 20 stories centered around Snape and his wife Jennifer. The last book just killed me and I'm eagerly waiting for the next one. She is being a booger and making us wait. *sigh*


Lately I've been flittering around from one author to another trying to just find some good writing. Some of the stories I've found have just hurt my brain. I just discovered Change of the Guard by Lomonaaeren, and I've read the whole darn thing in like 3 or 4 days. Now I wait for the next chapter. lol But the wonderful soul has written 46 stories. :) I'm in heaven cause her style of writing is just WOW.

So mostly it is the reading that is keeping me from here. It's hard to really discuss the stories I read cause well I know at least one person who thinks I'm nuts for reading some of them. I don't mind slash in my fanfiction at all. I can suspend belief and go with the flow of a wizard being able to get preggers. Hell if I'm reading about magic, I can suspend belief all the way. heh

And yes I've been over on Rav lurking in the pants. I'm not posting there as much as I was before either. I've had a few bouts of sickness in the last couple months. Nothing real horrible but enough to make me not want to do anything other than read. I haven't made it to knit night in a couple months because of either the kid being sick or my being sick. So nothing much interesting going on. Unless you want to listen to me list the reasons I think it is insane for me to even consider buying a house. shivers My folks are trying to talk me into buying a house across town from them. Ummmmmm that just makes me want to run and hide. heh

Anyways, I'll try to post once in awhile and let y'all know I'm still alive. :)

no excuses

Not going to try and excuse my absence. I've been busy reading a lot lately. Maybe I'll post about that later on. I'm not feeling real good at the moment so I'll get to the point.

If y'all can spare a few prayers for everyone in Iowa I would be very grateful. There is historical flooding happening in many areas of central Iowa. The water is so high that they can't predict anymore where it is going to go. I hasn't been this high in a very very long time. Higher than the massive flooding back in 1963.

Say a prayer for those that were hit by the tornadoes in Parkersburg a few weeks ago. And say another for the boy scouts that were hit in western Iowa last night. There were about 100 people at the camp and fully half of them were hurt. The latest I heard four boys died.

Ok, now I'm going to take my flu-riddled ass to bed. I get to work tomorrow regardless of my health. *sigh*

heh Got ya

Ummm yeah, I meant to update this all last week. heh I let Ally and Sue off the hook Wednesday night. :D And yeah I do believe they want to skin me alive. So, yeah, the last post there, was an April Fools joke. heh Sorry Diane, hope you don't hate me now. hehe

I haven't even talked to TJ in a couple weeks. He is busy with his new job and hasn't been in to work with us since the before Easter. As far as I know, he is truly married. Frankly, I don't care much. lol I do believe I'm over him. I'm much too obsessed with a certain Mr. Alan Rickman. Can we say Yummy?? hehe

I was pretty damn sick last week. That is why I didn't get around to posting that the last post was a joke. I had a nasty cold for the beginning of the week. Then the IBS kicked in. I didn't get a wink of sleep Wednesday night. I did get a nap on Thursday and I went to bed very early that night. I'm still not feeling totally 100% normal yet. Shut up Ally!!! You too Sue!! :P I'm just real tired yet.

Had a wrangle with PayPal yesterday. After I got the kid to school I got an email that someone charged $40 to my account for some internet site I've never even heard of. Immediately I went and protested it. I changed all my passwords and security questions because it was obvious someone had actually been in my account and changed some settings but not my password thank god. When I got up this morning, the charges had been reversed. So all is well. But it shocked the shit out of me.

Filed my taxes this afternoon. I'm getting back enough to pay off my student loans and give my folks a bit of money. I wish like hell I could keep some of it for myself though. hehe Not that I need to buy any yarn or anything. Lord knows I've got enough to keep me busy for awhile. I've gone back and I'm working on the Autumn Mystery shawl again. I'm too tired to go back and find the name of it right now. heh

Ok, I'm gonna go troll the pants and read some more of the Jennifer Craw stories and hit the sack. Nick goes in for some comprehensive behavior testing tomorrow afternoon. Cross your fingers for me that they will come up with some ideas for him. I think he is just plainly a weird kid like I was though. hehehe Yeah and I'm still weird and that isn't soo horrible.

Long time

I am so sorry I haven't posted. Things have been nuts here.

TJ and I have been doing a whole lot of talking. Turns out he was telling me the truth. He isn't actually married. And it turns out the kids aren't even his. She has been lying to him the whole time they have been together. She has been messing on him the whole time. Needless to say, he was quite devistated when she finally admitted it.

So, she has moved home with her folks and taken the kids with her. TJ hates being alone anywhere. So he is working both jobs. He was going to try and keep milking but he can't keep up. He is barely spending any of his time at the farm right now. If he isn't working, he is usually here.

We went out last week and found a modular home to put out on the farm because the trailer is just too small. It's being delivered next week, so I have tons of packing to get done. Yeah, Nick and I are going to be moving in with TJ. I hate being alone as much as he does. lol

My folks aren't terribly happy about this all. Dad keeps threatening that he is going to take Nick from me. But seriously he has no leg to stand on. I'm going to let Nick stay at their house on the weekends so he can't say I'm keeping him from them. We are going to keep Nick in the same school for the rest of this year and then next year he will go to the one near the farm. TJ even promised to buy him a pony this summer. That one shocked me cause I know TJ hates horses. He thinks they are a waste of money but I guess he just wants to make sure Nick likes him. heh

Ok, I need to get myself into bed. I've got to go out to the farm tomorrow and start work on clearing the spot for the house. Hopefully in a couple weeks I'll have time to knit again. Y'all take care now.

She surfaces

I just haven't had much in the way to say lately. I got addicted to some fan fiction over at Mugglenet and I got lost in some Snape stories. Not to mention the time suck that is Ravelry. Always lots of interesting things to read over there. And loads of people to annoy the shit out of. :)

Actually, I'm kind of slipping into a bit of a depression. It's not so bad so far. No dark thoughts. Just a shitload of not wanting to do anything. I've barely knit a thing in the last few weeks. I still haven't done the finishing on the stealth knitting. *sigh* I know part of it is that TJ quit. This past weekend was his last. He'll be working 80 or 90 hours a week at his new job, so I'm not likely to see him again. Oh well, it wasn't a good thing for me anyway.

I got my February yarn from Story Publishing for their contest at WEBS.

I got a lovely skein of Swoon from Fiesta yarn. It's in the poppies colorway. Very yummy yarn. I can see why they call it Swoon.

They sent a lovely scarf pattern that works well with the yarn provided. Not sure I'll actually make it though. I might try and make either a hat or a neckwarmer. I also got some cute magnets.

Nick couldn't wait to put them on the fridge. I am not sure why he put them upside down though. lol

I've already gotten the March package but I haven't taken pictures of it yet. It was a skein of Berroco Sox. I don't really knit socks so I'm not quite as enthused about that package. lol I'll see if I can motivate myself to take pictures tomorrow.

If the child has behaved himself at school today, we are going to go see Horton Hears a Who tonight. Cross your fingers cause I really want to get out of the house. lol

groan

It is never good to hear a small child yell out "mommy!!" in the middle of the night.

Just as I get in there and turn on the light guess what I saw. . . . projectile vomiting. Oh joy!!

I was just getting ready for bed too. I guess I get another day off of work tomorrow. ::insert eye roll::

I have a very sensitive tummy and OH MY GOD the smell damn near sent me into vomitous lurchings myself. Mix together curly fries from Arby's, teddy graham's graham crackers and lemon aid that smelt super strong when it got drank. . . . And now the house smells like a cheap version of febreeze. I can't stand that shit but the lysol just wasn't killing the smell enough.

I had to empty out a loud of clothes in the washer, so the dryer is going. That damn thing takes forever and a day. I threw all his blankets in the washer and washed em once and reset it to wash again with hot water. Damn the gas bill. LOL I still have a small basket with a pillow and his sheets and some clothes in it that isn't going to be washed until morning. I'm sure that is just going to smell lovely. gag

I just feel itchy and gross right now. I made the kid take a shower. He is feeling much better now. I reminded him that if he wakes up with a tummy ache he needs to RUN for the damn bathroom and not puke on his bed and dresser. groan I put lots of towels on his bed and put a garbage can next to it. Hopefully he will just sleep the rest of the night. I'm going to have to keep him home just to keep an eye on him though. He normally doesn't just puke once.

Gahhhhh I need to go wash my hands and face again. I had to change my shirt earlier cause I leaned into the washer when I was filling it and just covered the front of my shirt.

Ok, I'm done grossing you all out. I think I'll go have myself a little drink now. whimper

Sometimes life sucks

I broke my damn front tooth. grrrrrr

About 10 years ago or so, I fell off the roof of the house. I was going to help Dad put up the Christmas lights. Unfortunately, I didn't put the ladder up very well and when I got to the top, I went down face first into the deck railing. My front teeth were knocked backwards. I had to have minor dental surgery to put them back where they belonged. They had to put fillings in the area between my front teeth because some of the teeth had chipped off. Well I now have a rather large sharp gap again. The filling was chipped before but it wasn't too bad. Now I'm afraid I'm going to cut my dang lip on my tooth. sigh And all I was doing was eating a dang carrot.

Now I gotta figure out which dentists are in network with my insurance. And who knows how much they will cover. They pay less on stuff that isn't preventative. whimper And this weeks check is going to be short. Last weekend I had to go home early Sunday due to whether. The boss was not to optimistic about getting to use PTO time for it. sniffle

Man I need a drink.

Yeah!!!

The stealth kitting???

She is done!!!

She is knit, knat, bound off and yarn cut!!! Off the needles!!!!

I need to do a little cleaning and moving in the living room and then she will be blocking in front of the tv. I think it would fit on the bed but well I don't want to get going only to realize it is too long. I'll of course take some pictures.

But you can't see them. :P Well not yet anyway. lol

After I show it off at the fiber guild meeting on Wednesday I have to pack it up and ship it off. Once it's new momma has seen it, I'll post pictures and tell y'all about it.

Mr. Nicky had an eventful weekend. He got to go on a plane ride on Saturday. He was thrilled. I was surprised that he wasn't the least bit nervous. My folks took him and he asked the pilot lots of questions before hand. Mom said that most were kind of goofy. But well he is my kid and all. lol He went up for a short ride in a little 4 seat Cessna. Call me a chicken but I don't think I could have done it. lol I was on a plane once when I was about a year old. I haven't flown again. Where I to win the lottery, I might relent and fly to Hawaii or Alaska. I really want to go on an Alaska cruise.

Ok, off to figure out which of my shawls I'm going to work on. I've got 4 or 5 of them left to work on. LOL

I hate Iowa in winter

Way too much shitting snow is going on around here. Go on over to Flickr and check out the pictures I took of the snow we got this last 2 weeks. It sucks.

Mr. Nicholas is still sick. This time it is a sinus infection. He has spent more time here with me at home than he has at school since before Christmas. It makes it very difficult for me to get anything done. I can't go anywhere because it is so dang cold.

I'm also getting over a cold. :( This last weekend was horrible. TJ was sick too so we made each other nuts. The tension between us is out of control right now. I swear either he better leave his gf/wife or whatever the hell she is or I better find myself a boyfriend or we are going to end up killing each other. LOL

Did I mention that I won a contest over at WEBS? They had a yarn of the month contest with Stoney yarns and yippy I won!!! This month I got a skein of Sheep Number 3.



Isn't it pretty?? It's a 100 gram skein at 325 yards of 30% silk and 70% wool. Yummmy stuff. :) And they even sent a pattern that uses just one skein of this yarn. Way cool.

I also got a picture of the Helen's Lace that I got.



Couldn't you just eat that up?? It's Chino. I can't wait to find the perfect pattern for this yarn. It is soo soft. Must resist urge to buy more!!!

If you go through my pictures a bit, you will find pictures finally of all the JaggerSpun yarn that I picked up at the end of the year. Some of it is laceweight and some is fingering weight. There is Navy, Claret, Pewter and a blue heather color. So much yarn and so little time to knit. lol Only 20 or so and I'm done with the stealth knitting!! Yeah then I'll be able to do some stuff to show y'all.

Ok, time to get the kid fed. He insisted on some tator tots. Then it's back into the pants for me before I get yelled at. :P