I'm blushing

hehehe I guess I didn't realize just how out of it I was this morning. After I got Jon's note I went back and read it. I sat here and giggled. It made no sense what so ever. LOL

No, I was not drunk. I haven't had a drink in probably almost 3 years now that I really think about it. I've never been a heavy drinker, so it is hard to remember the last time that I had anything. I'm thinking that it was when I was still with the moron. We split up about 2 years ago and I know it was at least 6 months before that. He always had a fit when I had a drink. I mean come on. I would have 1 glass of Southern Comfort and lots of ice and Pepsi. Yeah I would get a lil buzz but not drunk. The last time I was actually drunk was back in 98 about a month before I found out I was pregnant. Yeah, there is a good possibility that was the night that the kid was conceived. hehehe Was one hell of a night. 'Nuff said on that one. :P

I also wasn't high. Well not from illegal drugs anyway. I had one brief experimentation with pot back in 97 I think. Did it once, didn't think it did much. So I never bothered to try it again. I hate ciggerette smoke, so I'm not about to smoke something myself, ya know. I've never taken pills that I didn't get from a drug store or pharmacy. And I take those for their stated purposes. Doctors are good at coming up with novel reasons to take a certain drug even though that isn't the drugs main purpose it was made for.

What happened was, the night before last, I didn't get much sleep. I got up way to early yesterday. I though I had taken my morning meds and went about my day. I felt just fine until I got out of the truck when I got home last night. I was feeling quite dizzy. I went about getting stuff put away and getting the kid in bed and I just kept feeling more light headed. Finally I sat down at my desk and realized what the problem was. I, in fact, had not taken my morning meds. My doctors have said that you can't feel withdrawal symptoms after missing only one dose. I'm here to say BULL SHIT. It had only been about 14 hours since I should have taken them. I was dizzy, kind of incoherent and quite confused. It was too late to take the missed doses, so I took my night time pills.

I was thinking that I was going to the doctor again this morning early, so I took a sleeping pill the doc had just given me. That made things worse. I was so loopy that I literally didn't have the sense to get my butt in to bed and go to sleep. I'm sure I would have passed out. Sheri was giving me such shit and was so worried, she had me eating crackers cause she thought it was my blood sugar going wacky. I had eaten a big supper and then a chocolate cupcake with way too much frosting on it. Sheri kept yelling at me to take the missed meds. TY dear but not a good idea. Well after the girls had all gone to bed I sat reading Harry Potter, the first book cause I'm so uncool. LOL Well it was so late and I was worried I wouldn't get to sleep right away and wasn't thinking straight. I took another sleeping pill. NOT my brightest moment.

When the alarm went off this morning, I was just as confused and dizzy as the night before. You would have sworn I was drunk with the way I was weaving around and leaning to the side. That is when I realized that today is Wednesday and my appointment isn't until tomorrow. groan Then I got the bright idea to write a blog entry before passing out again after taking my morning meds. After I hit publish I went back to bed for awhile.

Well here we are now. I'm still tired, a little on the clumsy wobbly side, but I'm at least mostly here. I think my spelling has improved quite a bit. LOL I won't run spell check this time either. Most errors are prolly ones I make all the time anyway but just hide by using spell check.

Ok, I'm eatin my lunch now and trying to get some mail done. Will let y'all know when I feel normal. Then again, I can't remember EVER feeling normal. So it may be a few years. LOL