In Demand

Grrrrrrrr Blogger won't allow me to embed a YouTube video.

I really like this video though on a number of levels.

Texas: In Demand (with Alan Rickman)

For one, Alan Rickman is HOT!! He looks super sexy dancing. I swear I'm now going to have to just go down the list of movies he has done and rent them all. I've seen a few of them but not nearly all of them. I have this thing for British actors. mmmmmm

And also, it is a pretty good song. Not my usual musical style, but I like it. Swear I think Ally is going to be downloading their music for awhile. She found a bunch of their music listed and loves it. hehe

And now I must head to bed. I've got to work in a few hours!! lol

Holy crap Batman

I've got myself a part time job!!

Interview took all of about 2 minutes. lmao

I'll be working about 4 hours a day washing dishes at the school where my mom works in the cafeteria. She has said for years that she didn't want me working there. hehe The last time my dad mentioned it, I do believe her exact words were: "I love you but heeeellllllllllllllllllllllllllll no!"

She actually is the one that told me to go talk to her boss. I guess they have been swamped. They don't have any workstudy kids helping out and they are a person short. The pay isn't great, but oh well. It's close enough that I could walk to work if I really wanted to. But I went to that school for 2 years and I only walked twice. lol

I start tomorrow morning, so I need to get my butt in gear. I had saved up my shopping and laundry to be done tomorrow. Ummmm yeah not so much now. I desperately need to go buy myself some new jeans for work. I swear all of my jeans now have holes in them in spots that just look real bad. LOL

Steppin my way closer to getting my bigger apartment. :O)

PS Thanks to everyone that responded to my outburst the other day. Just writing it down really helped.

PPS The new shawl is Zephyr in Apricot. I love this yarn. hehe

Knitting update

I've finally finished clue 1 of Mystery Shawl 4. Yep, last clue was released last Saturday. And I just finished the first clue. I'm a knitting putz.

I should have put it on longer circs cause I didn't have enough slack to block it out at all. As it is, it is already 19 inches across.



Here is a close up of one section of the shawl.



And a close up of the center of the shawl.



I think the center is just too pretty.

I've already started the second clue. Ok, so only one row almost done but still.

Btw, the reason for the bobby pin in the first picture? There was a section of yarn that was kind of icky. The silk ply looked like someone had gotten it wet and coated it with dust. It was thick and gross looking. I didn't notice it until I had gotten back around on the next row. It took me a few times of picking at it to get all the gunk out. Now it just looks a little dusty/dirty. I'm sure a good wash when I'm done will clear the rest of it up.

They lie

They always try to tell us that time heals all wounds. This is all just a bunch of bullshit.

Time doesn't heal shit. Time just distracts us from the pain. It takes our focus away so that the pain doesn't drive us mad.

But it comes back. With no warning and out of the blue. It smacks you in the face and rips out your guts. It doesn't matter how much time has passed. The pain is still as horrible as the day it happened.

Anyone that has lost someone that they loved knows this all to well. Especially if you didn't get to say goodbye. Didn't get to tell that person just one more time how much they meant to you.

It rips my heart out remembering. But I can't forget. It could have been just yesterday. I woke up one day to realize that this person was gone. 'Forever, with no chance to touch them one more time. No chance to say " I love you " Not even a chance to see them smile again. There was no closure. No ending to the pain.

I still wake up at night crying out for this person. Reaching for the hand that isn't there. And never will be. I've screamed out for someone, anyone, to stop this pain. For someone to take it back. To bring my love back to me. Even just for a moment.

I've begged. I've pleaded. I've even tried to bargain. If only they could come back, I would give up having known them. Just so they could be back. Or even to have said take me instead. But now that one is harder. If I had gone instead, there wouldn't be my son. And I love him beyond reason. I can't allow myself to wish him away even for the sake of the one I lost.

He doesn't even know about this person I lost. All he knows is that sometimes Mommy gets really sad. Sometimes she wakes up crying. I always try to hide how much I'm hurting from him. I'm not always so good at it.

All I can do it try and use the pain as a kick in the ass. A kick that tells me to stop fucking things up. Stop wasting what I've got when lord knows I don't deserve it. Never forget what I've lost and what it cost me. And damn me to hell if I ever forget.

Travis Tritt - Tell Me I Was Dreaming

When I woke up this morning
Wiped the sleep from my eyes
I found a new day dawning
And suddenly I realize
You're gone

Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
It was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye

I'm in a state of confusion
I hope things aren't what they seem
If this is really happening
Just let me go back to dream
You're home

Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
It was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye

Tell me I was dreaming tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
It was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye

Don't tell me you didn't say goodbye
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Toni Braxton - Un-Break My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on
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Garth Brooks - The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
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I have way too many damn cds full of sad songs. I can't actually find the Toni Braxton cd which is pissing me off. I really wanted to listen to that song. The sad song help though. I sit and cry and sing along. And then I sleep. And then I feel better.

Not a good day

I am tired and bloated and emotionally screwed.

I'm PMSing right now with a vengeance. When I was on medication, I didn't have any problems with PMS at all. Or maybe I was so dazed that I didn't realize I was. lol I'm just really feeling bloated and it's making me uncomfortable.

Emotionally, my fuse is very short. I can feel myself on the verge of either getting very pissed or just breaking down into tears. The damn raid isn't helping matters any.

A guy in our crew at work seems to have quit. He didn't come in to work at any rate. His buddy that just started a couple weeks ago went home after 5 hrs because of a headache. We aren't too hopeful that he will be back tomorrow. Hopefully we will get some new people hired to help out. There is another crew that works the weekend and they can't keep people on for it at all. It is looking like they are going to call off the weekend shift for them and make the crew during the week work more hours. I seriously hope they don't do that to use. I really like the weekend shift.

I'm off to bed now. I am just beat.

I need an intervention

I just got out of the shower and was looking for some sort of clip to hold my hair back. That is when I noticed that I have a serious problem.

I'm addicted to buying toothpaste.

I have 10 (count em 10) small tubes of toothpaste. All still in the boxes. I also have 3 large tubes of toothpaste. 2 of them are open and one I've been using. The other is still in it's box.

Why do I buy so much dang toothpaste????

Do I secretly fear that I have stinky breath?

I know my teeth aren't as white as they should be and most of the tubes that I have are whitening paste. But still..... We are talking 13 tubes of toothpaste.

This doesn't even count the 2 tubes of toothpaste for NIck. I keep one on hand so he doesn't run out. He tends to use too much toothpaste. His are always fruit and bubblegum flavors.

Mine are all different sorts of flavors. Citrus, Mint, Cinnamon, Vanilla. And a few others I can't think of at the moment. I will admit that 8 of the small tubes are in sampler type boxes with 4 to the box. 4 different flavors. I bought 2 boxes because they were on sale. I don't really like the regular mint flavor toothpaste. It makes me want to gag. Maybe it was a bad reaction to some creme de minth when I was younger.

Anyways, how young can a kid be when you switch em to adult toothpaste?? If he was using my toothpaste, I wouldn't feel so bad for having so much. And maybe it would get used up faster. lol

I've put all the toothpaste into my cabinet where I keep the one I'm using. Maybe this will remind me that I don't need any more dang toothpaste. hehe

Clarification

I need to clarify some things.

The married guy at work, let's call him TJ, is not some dirty old man or anything. TJ is about 25 and has been married for about 5 years. He has a 4 yr old and a 6 month old. He loves his wife to no end.

We just like to flirt with each other and talk about sex and lots of other mundane type stuff. We don't go into great detail about any of the naughty stuff. It's all just your basic flirting stuff.

I only mentioned it because it sort of shocked me when he admitted to having a crush on me. And he seriously looked embarrassed that I knew what he had signed to me. I think he was just goofing and didn't think I would know what he was saying.

And when I said I wasn't interested in him, I was talking about in actually doing anything. I totally enjoy talking and flirting with him. But I am in no way attracted to him. He is a skinny guy and I like my guys chubby. Well not to mention the whole married thing. That is all a big ole turn off. lol

But seriously, there is nothing to worry about. I'm just a natural flirt and I have to remember not to cross any lines because he is such a nice guy.

On the knitting front, I am getting closer to finishing clue 1 of the new mystery shawl. No need to bore you with pictures until it is done. I ordered some yarn the other day and it should be here next Tuesday. So I'll have some pics for ya then. I just put in an order for some dyes too. It is a small kit of autumn colored dyes. I have no clue when that will be here. Not that I don't have enough to keep me busy on the whole yarn front anyway.

Oh, did I tell ya that I got a drop spindle?? Haven't quite figured out how to use it yet. It came with instructions, but well I learn better from seeing something done. Which is why I couldn't figure out knitting until I got a cd-rom that showed how to do it. I'll have to take it over to Mom's and see if I can find some videos on YouTube. Cable is a must for watching videos. hehe

Ok, time to go make some lunch. Then more knitting on MS4.

ssssssnnnnnooooorrrrrrrkkkkkkk

Allergy season is in full swing in the house of Frod. I'm taking 24 hour relief stuff that is only lasting me 12 hours. I wake up at 2am with snot pouring out of my nose and down the side of my face.

Wakes ya up real damn fast. lol

The thing that really gets me though is the fact that it has been raining like an SOB. It's been raining for the last 3 days or so and I've been miserable. You would think that with the rain beating down that the pollen and stuff wouldn't be able to fly around and cause me misery.

We had to turn the lights on at work today because it got so dang dark when the latest storm blew through. Normally we are able to turn the lights off by 9 am. I work in a tent like building. It is a ClearSpan building. It is white and made of fabric, so usually it is light enough in there so we can do without artificial lighting.

Things are a lil weird at work. All I'll say is that there is a guy. He is unavailable. I'm not really interested to begin with. But he appears to be. Very strange. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking a tightrope.

And now it is time for me to get ready for bed. If I stay online any longer, I'll end up spending more money. I got bamboozled into buying some yarn from Canada. Spent much more than I normally would for it too. But it is sooo pretty. And it is the yarn recommended for the next mystery shawl from GoddessKnits.com. Not that I'm getting much done on the current one. hehe Someday I'll get my act together. And the next day I'll die. lmao

Chopping broccoli

There's a Lady I Know
If I didn't know her
She'd be the Lady I didn't know.
And my lady, she went downtown
She bought some broccoli
She brought it home.
She's chopping broccoli
Chopping broccoli
Chopping broccoli
Chopping broccoli
She's chopping broccoli
She's chopping broccoli
She's chop... ooh!
She's chopping broccola-ah-ie!
Chopping bocco-loco-lay-eaa-eaa-eaa-eeee.....

The Chopping Broccoli Song~ Dana Carvey


Ok, there is no other reason for this post other than the fact that I had broccoli for dinner and this song got stuck in my head. hehehehe So I thought I would share my insanity with the world.

Enjoy.

I'm cursed

CURSED I TELL YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spent the morning trying not to just completely loose it. My pc was on all night and when I went to use it this morning it wouldn't respond. Ok, no biggie. I restarted. Google desktop had updated itself and when I signed on it was loading stuff up. And then my mouse and keyboards wouldn't work.

I restarted the pc again. Things were ok for a few minutes. And then no mouse and keyboard. gggggggrrrrrrr

I restarted yet again. Things appeared to be fine. I started downloading a game from that Giveaway a Day place. I'll look up the link later for y'all. Anyway, everything was sort of stuck and I figured the pc was just being slow. So off to the showers for me while the download proceeded.

I get out of the shower and everything is still stuck. #$%#$ OK, so I restart. It decides that we need to start in safe mode. Ok, no problem. It gives me the option to restore it. So I restore to last night. It starts up and says that there is a corrupt file. It's the system file. #*^#^%@

Soooooooooo.... I get out my system disk and attempt to do a repair. Unfortunately, the computer isn't seeing my main hard drive. AT ALL! I try several times to do a repair and it still will not see my damn hard drive. wwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

So I unplug everything on my pc and pull it out of the desk. I opened it up and checked out the hard drives. They were pretty hot. But I guess the computer had been running for a few days so that is to be expected. I pop the drives back in and plugged them back in. Closed it up and attached all the wires again.

This time everything started up with no problems at all. WTF???? I have very little information saved to this hard drive, so if I have to reformat it eventually, it won't be that big of a deal. I'm thinking I may need to add another fan to the case. I'm thinking that I may have knocked the wires loose on the main hard drive when I tilted the pc to mess with the mouse wires.

I need to find my product code and install my antivirus software again. Yeah, I've been running unprotected for awhile. I like to live dangerously. LOL Actually, I read all my mail online and only occasionally use IncrediMail to send stuff. I don't use Outlook for anything. It isn't even set up. So, it would be pretty hard for me to spread a virus on to anyone.

I think what I need is a nap. But I slept late today. Maybe I just got too much sleep. It stormed last night and woke me up and I kept having weird dreams. Kept dreaming about a couple guys from work. I don't really talk to the one and I don't know much about him. He has a great smile though. lol The other one I flirt with constantly just to make him wonder what the hell is goin on. But the truth be told, I'm not attracted to him at all and he is married to boot. He is just easy to mess with. hehe It's been making me realize that I'm lonely though. It's been a while since I've even thought about finding myself a significant other. I've just been happy to be on my own with the kid. Oh well.

I actually knitted a row on the mystery stole. It's the most knitting I've done in awhile. I'm going to go with the symmetrical version. I just don't think the variegated yarn would look right on the wing. I think it would be cool to make a double winged version some time with the undyed Pony 2-ply that I've got. Just have to wait for Melanie to release the finished pattern so I can buy it. hehe

Ok, time to go make some lunch. Mom is dropping off the rest of Nick's school stuff at one and then I'm going to go register him for classes. Oh yippy, spending more money on stuff not related to yarn. sniff sniff

My brain is a pain

Yeah the headaches are bugging me again. Nothing horrible. Just enough to irritate me. My temper is a bit short.

The temper might have to do with other things though too. Nothing horrible. Just enough to irritate me. lmao I've just got a lot on my mind right now.

I have the car back. Cross your fingers, toes, eyes and anything else you can think of that the damn thing won't break down again. I can NOT afford to fix it again just yet. It cost me another $330 in total this time. Turns out when the mechanic took it out just for a little test drive this morning, it started leaking. Something or other to do with tensioning was cracked. Dad thinks that the shop was messing with stuff because we bought the part this last time. Who knows.

But anyway the delay in getting the car back today meant spending the day with my folks and the kid. It just reminded me why I'm a bit of a hermit. Dad makes me nuts. He just had to visit his brother and sil. Oh joy. Sitting around with old people. I did get to see some of their reborn dolls and they are pretty cool. Much to expensive for this gal though. Then we stopped and got lunch. The kid made me nuts there. Boppin around and refusing to eat. Every time we told him to take a bite of his hamburger, he pretended to nearly puke or cried that we didn't like him.

We managed to pick up a bunch of school supplies at the dollar store and at Wal*Mart. And omg can we say "eeeeeeewwwwwww". I will NEVER use that bathroom at Wal*Mart again. Talk about dirty. On the way out of the parking lot to go back and get my car, Dad had a little bit of the road rage troubles. He rolled down his window and yelled at some lady that cut him off. I think he scared the shit out of her cause we had to go the same way she was. She probably thought he was following her to hurt her. lol

I was going to get the child registered for school today, but I so didn't feel like dealing with the crowds of kids. Instead, I sat on my tush and yapped away on Yahoo Messenger. Much fun was had and it helped me forget about the headache. Well for awhile anyway.

Haven't knit a stitch since last Thursday. I WILL knit tomorrow. Just what I'll work on I'm not sure. I'm still trying to decide what to do with my stole. I'm really leaning towards the symmetrical solution. I'm not so sure I was made to have wings. I'm sure no angel. :OP More on that later.

I do believe I'm going to try and get the kid to go to bed here soon. Mommy needs some alone time. His constant chatter is getting on my nerves again. lol

GAHHHHHHHHHHHH

Cuz I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
(Papa Roach - Last Resort)

First off, I really and truly thought that song was by POD. I swear in my head I can see them performing it. I guess I'll have to find the video on YouTube so I can prove to myself that it was in fact Papa Roach.

I tell ya people, if it wasn't for bad luck, I wouldn't have any luck at all.

Let us review: Nick broke his arm. Cost me $300 just to get the orthopedist to look at him. On the way home from his pediatrician, the muffler on my car went ass up. Had the muffler fixed, a tune up done and the air recharged. Cost me $314. Car acts up and I have to take it in again the next day. Turns out to be a loose spark plug wire. No charge to me. Yesterday I take the kid to the orthopedist again for a check up and the car acts up. Come back out of the doctor's and it won't start. Call mom for the mechanic's number. They come over and tell me that the head gasket or some such has blown. There is smoke billowing from the back of the car. Expected cost to me? Another $300 or so. ggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Oh and I got my new rental agreement. I live in county housing and the rent goes by your income. I am now going to be paying more rent then I ever have. I thankfully get a one month reprieve before having to pay it. I have a feeling I'll need that extra $300 for something or other.

I'm gonna go wrap the kid in bubble wrap and see if I can't find a straight jacket for myself.

I HATE ANTS!!!

The kid left a PopTart sitting on the counter on Saturday. I didn't really think about it much.

This morning, my counter was covered with ants!! So I sprayed the lil bastards with some nasty stuff and cleaned the counter off. Used some nice hot water to make sure I got all the lil corpses off and all the chemicals.

Half hour later, I came out to make some lunch.

MORE ANTS!!!!!

There wasn't any debris on the counter but the lil bastards were all over the place. So again I sprayed. Then I opened up the cabinet doors below the counter. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Yep, more ants. So I pulled everything out of the cabinet. All the cereal was fine, but a box of Ritz crackers was full of ants. I found ants in my empty plastic containers had ants in them too. All the containers are going to have to be washed out. All the cereal and rice and such is going to be going into the containers. Well once I find the right lids that is. hehe

I've set aside my MS3. I'm just not sure if I want to go ahead with the wing or not. Not sure I want to look like a very large bluebird. hehe Once I see some more finished clue 5s, I'll make a decision. In the meantime, I'm still plucking away on MS4. I've only done another 5 rows. lol

Work is going pretty good. One of the guys got hurt yesterday. He was working on his own and ran his hand along some banding and got his hand all cut up. Nothing bad enough for stitches but it just proves that he is a ditz. I did light pipe all weekend, so I'm not real sore today.

I was pretty damn tired though. I had to get up early and took the car to get fixed. I got it back this afternoon. My pocketbook is about $300 lighter. The car got a tuneup, a new pipe on the muffler and the air conditioner got recharged. It was like getting a new car. I could actually hear the kid talking and OMG the heaven of the cold air coming out of the vents. All in all, I got off cheap. I still need to have Dad take a look at the brakes. I can stop fine but they are whining some and I hate that noise.

OK, time to go see if the rain has stopped so I can bring my groceries in. If not, I'm gonna have to find a jacket cause it was pouring when we got home.

Update

Firstly, the kid is doing great. It only took about 10-15 minutes for the doc to get his arm set and get his cast on. We were at the hospital for about 3 1/2 hours total. Most of the time was spent getting him to go to sleep and then waking him back up.

He has a cast from his hand all the way up to near his arm pit. He says it is pretty heavy but that is because it is a plaster cast. Mom and Dad already beat me to signing his cast. He has a bigger sling on now too. It is making it much easier on him. This one doesn't keep sliding off and it is padded on the strap.

He had a bit of a tummy ache this afternoon, but his Nana brought him some white soda to settle his belly. He was just out in the living room singing his lil head off. So I guess it is safe to say he is feeling much better.

I haven't finished clue 1 on MS4 just yet. Here it is done up to row 32.



I've got it on a huge KnitPicks needle. I ordered some smaller cables but they are taking forever to process the order. I'm using Zephyr in Apricot on size 4s. I'm really liking how this yarn is looking and the fabric that I'm getting.

And now an update on MS3. Here is a closeup of how the colors are changing.



There is a lot more color variation there than I though there would be. I thought it would be just brown to blue and back. But there are several variations on the blue color in there and the color changes aren't as even as I though.



I'm up to row 242. I've got a long long way to go before I get caught up to everyone. Clue 5 comes out tomorrow and Melanie promises that it is going to be a big surprise. She is also going to reveal the theme. I'm going to have to wait until after work tomorrow in order to find out what is going on. I wish I had a fancy phone that I could download stuff off the internet. Then I could sneak a look at lunchtime. hehehe

Next week I'm really going to try harder to get some quality knitting done. I did get about 2 or 3 rows done on the Galveston shawl today while we were at the hospital. It looks exactly the same anyway, so I didn't take a picture of it. hehe

We're off to see the wizard

Nick is doing a nebulizer treatment as I write this. We will be heading to the hospital in a few minutes. My stomach is not being very nice to me but Mom is coming along to keep me company. I'll be taking the Galveston shawl along to work on.

Prayers have been said for all of those up in Minneapolis that were affected by the bridge collapse. Such a horrible thing to happen. We have 2 bridges close by that cross the Mississippi and it is scary to think of either one falling. shivers

I'll update y'all when we get home today.

Nerves suck

I can not concentrate on anything. I can only knit maybe a row or three on the MS3 before I need to get up and move. Or I can knit a couple rounds on the new MS4.

I can't concentrate of surfing the net. And that just doesn't take much in the way of concentration.

I can't pay attention to to any movies or tv shows. Forget about reading anything for more than a lil while.

I know the kid will be just fine tomorrow. The doctors will take very good care of him.

My brain has just turned into mush.

And now the car needing to be fixed isn't helping.

I would show pics of the knitting but I haven't done enough to show anything interesting. Maybe after tomorrow is done with I'll be able to show you something worth looking at.

Bangin my head on the wall

The more I do, the more things that blow up in my face.

All went well with Nick at the pediatrician. I really like the doctor that we saw today.

On the way back to the house, the muffler on my car gave up the ghost. The car was in need of a tune up and I had a feeling that the muffler was starting to go. Well it up and went. You would have sworn I was driving a stock car.

So, on Monday I'll be dropping the car off to have the muffler fixed and a tuneup done. I asked my dad to let me borrow his truck for the weekend. I really don't want to be waking up the neighbors every morning at 5:30. Well he tells me that the truck kind of drives funny. sssssssssshhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I'll only be driving it back and forth to work. Take it on Thursday night and give it back on Sunday night after work. I'm not exactly going to be going anywhere else. I don't have the energy on the weekends to do squat. I told him that it's not like I'll be driving like a bat out of hell on the interstate or anything. And he proceeds to tell me that he has had Mom's car up to 130 on the interstate. I told him that most of us have outgrown that sort of crap when we are in our mid twenties.

I'm assuming that he is going to let me use his truck. He had to leave to get xrays done. The dumbass jumped out of a tree and messed his back up. The man is a dipshit. lol

I'm gonna go knit now. I'm going to put in a lifeline right away just in case my luck extends to the knitting too. lmao

Tuesday ramblings

Well, Nick didn't get his cast today.

Turns out the doctor he saw Saturday night was a wackjob hack. He shouldn't have manipulated Nick's arm at all. Protocol says that he should have sent him to Dubuque for treatment. With as bad as the break was, he should have had it set that night by an orthopedist. There was actually an orthopedist that was expecting to see Nick on Monday. We were not even told that this doctor was talked to. The doctor we saw today was not at all happy that the one on Saturday took it upon himself to straighten the kid's arm.

The orthopedist's office was not happy with the insurance issues either. We had to talk to a social worker from the hospital in order convince them that they would get paid. If the Hawk-I insurance doesn't come through, I'll apply for Title 19 again. Found out that my folk's home owner's insurance will only cover $1000. Not so sure that will cover everything or not. I actually had to give the office $300 before they would even see Nick.

Tomorrow, Nick has to go in for a mini physical to make sure that he is healthy enough to be sedated. Thursday morning he has to go into the hospital to have his arm set and casted. They have to put him under so they can fix the mess that the other doctor created. The arm is pretty straight, but not as straight as it needs to be in order for a cast to be put on. The doctor today didn't realize just how badly broken Nick's arm was I guess. Basically, it came within millimeters of having the bone come through the skin. That would have meant immediate surgery. Not to mention and totally hysterical mother. hehe

On the bright side, Nick is not in any real pain. Occasionally he complains about a headache. No he didn't hit his head. I think it is just the strain on his body. He has winced a few times moving around and when we have to adjust his sling he gets uncomfortable. But sheesh the kid is strong and brave on that front. The only time in the whole ordeal that he has cried or anything was when the ER doctor was stretching his arm to straighten it. He is much braver than I am. hehe

In knitting news, I'm up to about row 26 on the new mystery shawl. No pictures yet. Once I get the whole clue done I'll take a picture. I'm up to row 235 on the mystery stole. I've got a long long way to go before clue 4 is done for me. I will be doing at least one increase in length. Once I get that done, I'll decide if I want to go for another increase. I just haven't been able to concentrate on the knitting for very long. But I think I deserve a pass on that one. hehe

Ok, I'm gonna go watch Singing Bee and drool all over Joey. He so reminds me of a guy I had a crush on about 15 years ago.

Kidlet Update

Mr. Nick is doing pretty good today. He hasn't much complained about too much pain. He slept really well last night. He got about 8 hours. Loads more than he got the night before. He doesn't have much of an appetite though. I'm thinking that the Lortab is leaving a nasty taste in his mouth. He has complained that the food I've given him doesn't taste right.



It's been hard keeping the lil fart sitting in the recliner. I keep telling him to keep his arm up on a pillow. As you can see, he isn't listening too well. hehe I had just given him a pain pill about a half hour before taking these pictures. I do believe he was just a lil high. hehe



He looks adorable in this picture though. I might have to have my mom print it off on her photo printer for me. He loves having his picture taken.

We go and see the orthopedist tomorrow afternoon. Due to the insurance issues, I will have to pay for the visit right away. Once the insurance is all settled, they will reimburse me, but it will be at least 10 working days before the insurance is even looked at. Cross your fingers that he doesn't need surgery cause I am not sure I'll be able to swing that.

I'm just glad he is being such a trooper. Hardly any complaints out of him. He was a bit testy last night before we left my folk's house. But I think he was just tired. And pissed that I wouldn't let him play on the computer any more. He doesn't need to be messing with a computer mouse with a broken right arm.

Ok, I'm off to work on the MS3 and the new mystery shawl. I've got the first 14 or so rows done on the new shawl. I'm liking the Zephyr so far. It is kind of splitty though. Oh well. More updates tomorrow night.

Someone wake me from this nightmare

It's never good when your father walks into your workplace and tells you not to freak out.

At about 5:45 tonight my darling son fell off of his scooter and broke his right arm. After dropping Mom and Nick off at the emergency room, Dad came and told me at work what happened. We work for the same place, so he knew right were I was in the building.

What killed me was that I had a half hour before I could punch out. I was in hell waiting to leave so I could go be with him.

He broke both bones in his right forearm. They put a temporary splint on his arm for now. On Monday I'll have to call his pediatrician and find out where they want me to take him for a real cast. They will have to put him out while they straighten his arm the rest of the way.

Being the independent little shit that he is, he insisted that his grandparents take him to their place. He is going to spend the night on the recliner at their place. I guess that saves me from having to wake him up at 5am and draggin him over there. He absolutely refused to come home anyway. I guess he really just takes after me real bad. When I was 4 or 5 I cut my head open real bad and had to have loads of stitches. I refused to go home with my mom that night because I was supposed to be staying over at my grandparents house (which is where I got hurt). I totally insisted on staying with them over night instead of with Mom. Hell when we left the hospital, he wouldn't even let me hold his other arm to make sure he wouldn't fall cause they drugged him up real good. The boy is a shit.

Anyways, just cross your fingers and toes that they don't have to do surgery on him Monday. And give your own lil turdlets a hug if you have any. I'm gonna hit the sack and try to get some sleep.